Okay all the real flabby looseness has been lost from the bottom of the stomach, just a bit more for the remaining to firm up more
Playing pinball for the first time in a while, adopting the same familiar stance as always, suddenly realizing my center of gravity and sensory experience are completely different than they’ve been since I started playing pinball
Huh , of the four molar cusps of flesh of the once-belly I thought the lower right was unusually prominent but as everything comes into focus I see it’s really that the upper right one was unusually flattened, giving me a clearer view of the lower one looking down.
Hm, I would say the absolute bottom part of the stomach, like from the 5 to 7 o'clock positions, has firmed up but there’s still some looseness 4-5 and 7-8.
Feeling the shrinking— stomach, it’s a stomach not a belly now, a mass secured in the abdomen not a sprawling softness (when it’s reduced to just a pouch at the lower abdomen it’ll be a gut) and marveling that based on experience with the creatine thing and projecting from here, the rest’s already doomed, like the warrant has been signed
Okay after going down to 4 scoops/day last week failed I tried to do 4 day/1 night, and that left me too sluggish to smash, so I just did 4 full buckets of weeding.
So I guess I’m not as on the verge of stepping down as I thought, which means we should expect my final weight to come in on the lower end of the range I predicted, average side of slim or even plain slim.
Meaningless but interesting novelty in that from losing weight I can now look down at my stomach and see more skin below the navel than I can remember
Won’t be too long before the bottom edge of the belly feels firm, it already does when I sit down.
At this point the fat seems to be drawing in from the sides around the abdomen, and projecting less in sideways profile.
Thighs now all blemished like the belly had looked after loose skin was produced tighter the next dermal layer down
Something I did not prepare for in losing weight is aside from the grey hairs, my bearded face now looks more youthful than it has since my early 30s
Like after the personality change if I had been more active and felt less eating compulsion or even if my metabolism changed and I lost weight that way it would be one thing.
But the thing about having to take the creatine is I am losing fat several times faster than humans are naturally capable.
Just waking up, and having a normal diet with 3 meals, one bigger than the others, and going out to do some yard work every day, which half the time is just carrying armloads of things around for three hours.
And out of this it’s like “oh, yup, working overtime to give you the ideal body you always wanted, just cuz, no, you don’t need to do anything, we got it.”
Like, I know it must be kinda tedious from outside to see me keep gawping at my miraculous luck, but reorienting myself to wrap my mind around it is kinda the major project of my interiority rn, and I’m still gonna be mulling it over for decades.
What was once the top roll of belly fat is now registering to me not as part of the belly, a fat storage organ, but as the abdomen, a set of muscles used for bending the torso, merely covered in a pad of fat.
Like I am right now about as thin as I was in the middle of 5th grade, by which time I was already conscious and forming memory, but maybe because the musculature wasn’t as developed I have no memory of this sense, it’s like I just discovered a new body part.
I suppose one thing about the personality change and the weight loss and all the post-Covid stuff is as miracles go it’s 0% divine, 100% Science in nature. Like, it’s virological protein synthesis under evolutionary pressure as applied to biology, influencing how consciousness arises through neurological electrochemistry and the endocrine system producing hormones and shit.
Huh now it feels like there is that fat safely within the main mass of the belly and that exposed without, which includes a half-inch subcutaneous layer over that mass.
Grabbing the bottom of my belly and it’s not firm yet, but compared to not long ago it feels like mud someone suddenly poured a bunch of sand into
Bottom of the belly isn’t solid yet, but it’s a lot firmer and less jelly-form than it was
Some back of the envelope math here assuming my daily natural production of creatine is equivalent to 2 scoops, and assuming my need for supplementation decreases at a steady linear rate, then this period where I was taking 5 (+2 natural = 7 used overall) saw a weight loss that will be equaled by the periods I am taking 4 plus the one somewhat after I’ve stopped supplementing where my daily demands still use some (6 + 1), the period I’m taking 3 plus the one immediately after going to 0 (5 + 2) AND the one I’m taking 2 plus the one I’m taking 1 (4 + 3).
This implies that if no further “echoes” strengthen the drain any, there is about 3 times the weight loss remaining as I have seen at this level.
My mental model ranks states of… fatness as
, dividing all but the end caps further into “the [N+1] side of N”, “plain N”, “the [N-1] side of N”.
When the aerobic energy issue first struck and I started replacing with anaerobic from creatine, I was at “plain fat” or even “the obese side of fat”. I am now at “the fat side of overweight”, and expect to hit “plain overweight” by the end of the month. By the time this resolves I expect to be somewhere between “plain average” and “the average side of slim”.
The lower, ah, corners of the belly, where it connects back to fat deposits at the hips, drawing back too
Okay the lower edge of the belly’s really firming up, I think when that feels solid will be the line between “the fat side of overweight” and “just plain overweight”