The belly used to be massed into four molar-like “cusps”, several months ago the top two merged into a “top roll of fat”; the bottom two remained distinct if only because the navel pulls down the valley between, but I think that’s only got a week or so to go.
Hm, the last time I was this thin I didn’t have muscles, instead the stomach was kind of hanging set into the abdomen where the abdominal muscles are now, but today it’s like it’s mounted on top
Under the fading mass of the stomach’s once-top roll of fat, I can feel my abdominal muscles for the first time in my life.
See, this is what I’m talking about how up to now it was about draining the pool around the submerged mass but now it’s about taking on the mass itself
Under the fading mass of the stomach’s once-top roll of fat, I can feel my abdominal muscles for the first time in my life.
Huh, so the “fat edge of overweight” to “plain overweight” transition I just completed was largely about going from belly to stomach – at the plain overweight stage I hold all the fat as a single boule mounted on the abdomen, it’s in the progression beyond this that the adjacent flesh gets soft, the body distributes fat to the flanks and to pockets blistered upon the taut core mass.
So slimming in the opposite direction felt as a draining of waters around this central mass, this completed the exposed core felt, reasonably, as full and taut as it could be.
But, also reasonably, as things continue to progress, it doesn’t.
Huh, now no matter how far I slouch over at the rib cage I can’t make the subcutaneous fat between the top of the stomach and the chest roll up on itself.
you describing this as a reverse feederism thing intrigued me because I am into non-reverse feederism, and reading your blog I was just thinking 'the features this guy's writing fixates on when talking about his weight loss and the tone he does it with are exactly like something I'd write, but inverted.' it's actually an interesting POV of attraction to thin bodies, which has always been a pretty alien mentality to me
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I can lie to sleep on my side and even my stomach again like I haven’t since elementary school, though with the latter even putting a hand under the pillow I’m not sure how to prop my neck with my head at adult weight and dimensions
Coughing over a vape hit feels different now that the muscles clenching up in the torso aren’t buried under as much fat
Ah, jeez, the skin reductions that always cause such blemishing are going on to the fatty pad over the pubis where my pubes are. At least I know they only last a few days.
Is kind of amusing that every day I wake up as a sluggish mass and have to perform an alchemical ritual to sacrifice a pinch of flesh for the energy to get through my day.
Oh woah hold the fucking phone, I can’t remember the last time my areolas and nipples felt like this but it’s so familiar I am sure this was the way I first got used to them feeling
Oh huh, my nose is thinner now. Dunno why that would be exempt, but it’s unintuitive.
Really feels like the weight loss up to now has been a matter of draining the pool of flesh until only this solid bulk of stomach mounted to the torso remains.
(In reverse, I think originally gaining weight past this point was somewhat a matter of the additional flesh making the stomach feel less like it stood out and thus reducing the felt experience of surplus.)
Course what’s really new this time is I have musculature that’s starting to come exposed too.
But so while previous loss was a matter of reducing to this core, further loss will necessarily be of it
Oh hey, I can feel my ribs now! Not individually, but I can make out the bone cage through flesh.
Alright, bottom edge of the stomach has firmed up enough. Some at like the 4:30 and 7:30 positions still feels a little watery but I realize that’s just that the skin hasn’t shrunk taut yet.
So, that was the last flabby part of my body left and I now leave “the fat edge of overweight” for
I haven’t been here since early fifth grade.
There’s some clothes that used to fit but it was because the belly was taking up slack intended for that chest and when I developed that didn’t, that now do again.
But not as well as they will!
Like, sorry for belaboring it, but blowing my own mind once again contemplating that no, this miraculous weight loss wasn’t just given to me, it was a reward for defeating the first fatigue symptom, which presented as life-threatening incapacitation but I figured out in less than an hour of contemplation and just had a jar of the miraculous antidote sitting in my kitchen, at the limit of my mobility
Hm, bottom edge of the stomach not loose anymore but still kinda unconsolidated, give it some more time
Playing pinball for the first time in a while, adopting the same familiar stance as always, suddenly realizing my center of gravity and sensory experience are completely different than they’ve been since I started playing pinball
Like, trying to muscle the table around, our relative masses had changed by enough it mattered.