Me (looking in the mirror): I could only pass for Santa Claus like right out of college

Oh, hey, I’m thin enough to wear this nice shirt again. And for all time going forward. It even fits better now!

Looking at the blender bottle where I’ve shaken up protein powder with my creatine in it, thinking “time to drink today’s dose of thin”

Looking at my stomach head-on in the mirror the impression is now not of a mound with a flat top but a plain sloping off at the sides.

(I honestly think some of this is I didn’t have good shadow in that position for depth)

So yeah, the stomach is itself getting thinner, shrinking from outside in. Already it’s feeling less like a loose mass of fat than a gym mat.

Just want to once again point out that “you become smooth and charismatic and get girls easy and become thin and fit with no effort and also you turn bi” was quite literally what I wished for when I was 13

Weight loss gone far enough there’s not much but one smooth, featureless lump of fat at the stomach and at most I can be like “I guess it feels smaller today?”

Huh, the fold in skin beneath the stomach, which I’ve always considered my waist, is moving upwards. I was prepared for the stomach rising from there to reduce in magnitude, I didn’t expect the base to erode.

Like I don’t know if it’s thinner or under less strain or what, it’s definitely softer – but my entire abdomen feels like a baby’s bottom rn, after months of running my hands over it and it was some rough and exfoliated but even then didn’t feel like this, assume that has something to do with the weight loss

The weight-loss action lately is in the stomach shrinking from projecting ahead of me; looked at from atop the neck it’s becoming a shorter hillock with more flat space at the top, makes me realize there might not be a clear delineation between the last stages of having a “stomach” and an even layer of subcutaneous padding across the torso.

Overnight feel like my stomach became both smaller and tighter, which I suppose might be the skin contracting (and indeed I see some of the blemishing I’ve associated with that before, but not in one concentrated area)

Huh in like the two inches between the bottom of the pecs and the swell of the stomach, I can feel the abdominal muscle under the flesh. I’ve never felt that before!

Okay, now the pads of fat over my hips are dissolving and my torso as looked at in the mirror head-on is squaring off

Oh, huh, my pecs have started to establish themselves as distinct squarish (lozenge, I guess)-shaped regions of my chest, I was wondering how that happened.

Also the way I’m not even losing weight (in Amelia Bedelia or idiomatic senses) so much as burning it as ablative armor kind of justifies carrying it all this time in retrospect

Oh, huh, now I can feel muscle tone in the part of the upper arm facing away from the body with arms to the sides

Feeling this “spare tire” developing is wild cause it feels like it’s bulging out but no, I’m definitely losing weight, so that means the area around it is scooping in

Yeah no everything about the experience of my body feels off and maybe I should have held off on calling the Plain Overweight phase until now, the difference is clearly that I’m not in any way fat, which had been my experience my whole life since getting the body in this form, to the point I had not developed an experience of embodiment distinct from it.

Wow.

I would want to be thinner in person at the time, but I would not mind a girl I was trying to get seeing a shirtless picture of me like this.

Oh fuck me my chest is so planar that just now getting out of the shower it was glistening