{"version": "1.0", "type": "rich", "title": "Back when I had \u2013 well not just the anxiety disorder but merely the ability to feel loss at all \u2013 I used to make myself...", "author_name": "kontextmaschine", "author_url": "https://kontextmaschine.com", "provider_name": "kontextmaschine", "provider_url": "https://kontextmaschine.com", "url": "https://kontextmaschine.com/post/726076250962214912/", "html": "<p>Back when I had \u2013 well not just the anxiety disorder but merely the ability to feel loss at all \u2013 I used to make myself regularly envision actively accepting the death of loved ones in the name of higher goals, so that I would never (or at least be <i>confident</i> that I would never) risk falling to corruption that way.</p>"}