Hm, no yeah I’m pretty sure the mania did fire prematurely and proportionately weaker AND it’s doing the “anxiety returns” variant so “proportionately weaker” means I don’t have an anxiety disorder now, but I am able to experience anxiety again (and thus shame, guilt, regret, etc.)
So in totality this is novel - I’m not always finding negative angles to things but I do dwell on particularly unpleasant ones, my outlook for the course of events isn’t really more negative \u2013 I don’t see any new threats \u2013 but not immune \u2013 I’m not as expectant there won’t be threats \u2013and certainly less golden sunshine day positive.
Though I do see a potential for a good future broader than what I thought of as “the sun-dappled clearing”
Also less eye-rolling about people drawing negativity from contemporary trends or events \u2013 there’s some bad shit going on!
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