I’ve been feeling –weird- today, in a way that kind of feels like part of how I do in mania – after seeing that post yesterday about a sense of impending doom as heart attack symptom I almost wonder if it’s done equally prerational sense that my cardiovascular system is operating near peak and not to strain it – I def. had a very strong intuition making coffee to Not Make Too Much.

Also my refractory period is verging on 24 hours these days but I just jerked off twice in two, it honestly feels like my mania tripped after only charging up this much rather than building a full cycle’s head of steam.