\ngoing to be losing my mind about this forever. neurotypical people don\u2019t know why other people do things EITHER!!!! they are operating on VIBES. diagnose u with NO VIBES DISEASE
Honestly yes, since Covid spread to my brain and gave me a new personality and I only then realized the old one had been autistic by contrast, I don’t fully know why I do things sometimes and just operate on vibes.
Like logical reasoning is still done with the same structures and procedures, but especially social stuff \u2013 I had always been like “is everyone else aware of information they’re picking up from some other frequency?”
And like, they are definitely \u2013 now I am \u2013 picking up that frequency but weirdly we’re not becoming aware of any information from it, it’s like it goes from input to informing our own behavior without ever surfacing into consciousness.
Allistic stuff is actually a lot like that - like, if I want to go up and have a conversation with someone I don’t have to consciously decide on a subject, and figure something to say about it, and a particular approach to open with, and precisely when to time it for, instead ifs just like an adventure game \u2013 I choose TALK with GIRL and that stuff just sorts itself out.
Well maybe even better cause the classic trope is undercutting a smooth talker by drawing attention to the way the things they say do not cohere in a logical view but I have decades of experience of approaching conversation from an exclusively “what actually makes sense here?” standpoint and drawing on that experience I can make sure my patter holds together even if I don’t entirely know what it’s gonna be until it comes out of my mouth.
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