Like after the personality change if I had been more active and felt less eating compulsion or even if my metabolism changed and I lost weight that way it would be one thing.

But the thing about having to take the creatine is I am losing fat several times faster than humans are naturally capable.

Just waking up, and having a normal diet with 3 meals, one bigger than the others, and going out to do some yard work every day, which half the time is just carrying armloads of things around for three hours.

And out of this it’s like “oh, yup, working overtime to give you the ideal body you always wanted, just cuz, no, you don’t need to do anything, we got it.”

Like, I know it must be kinda tedious from outside to see me keep gawping at my miraculous luck, but reorienting myself to wrap my mind around it is kinda the major project of my interiority rn, and I’m still gonna be mulling it over for decades.