{"version": "1.0", "type": "rich", "title": "I love that I can jerk off about guys now. That's just so neat!", "author_name": "kontextmaschine", "author_url": "https://kontextmaschine.com", "provider_name": "kontextmaschine", "provider_url": "https://kontextmaschine.com", "url": "https://kontextmaschine.com/post/714165733651841024/", "html": "<p><a class=\"tumblr_blog\" href=\"https://viking-badger.tumblr.com/post/714120667085324288\" target=\"_blank\">viking-badger</a>:</p><blockquote><p><a class=\"tumblr_blog\" href=\"/post/710199691292344320/\" target=\"_blank\">kontextmaschine</a>:</p><blockquote><p><a class=\"tumblr_blog\" href=\"https://sighinastorm.tumblr.com/post/710197056543817728/could-you-not-before\" target=\"_blank\">sighinastorm</a>:</p><blockquote><p><a class=\"tumblr_blog\" href=\"/post/710195738242678784/\" target=\"_blank\">kontextmaschine</a>:</p><blockquote><p>I love that I can jerk off about guys now. That&rsquo;s just so neat!</p></blockquote><p>Could you not before? </p></blockquote><p>No, I was straight my whole life, I actually tried &ldquo;bihacking&rdquo; myself as a teen but while I succeeded in dispelling any <i>aversion</i> to m/m sexuality I ultimately had to accept I was just not <i>into</i> it. But in 2020 I caught Covid before vaccines existed, it spread to my brain and caused enough damage there that my existing personality was no longer viable, and after a period of depersonalization I generated a new one that is different in some major respects, including being bisexual. </p></blockquote><div class=\"npf_row\"><figure class=\"tmblr-full\" data-tumblr-attribution=\"itsalliepg:vo583i2MfJcSzh88azMgdQ:ZDpDna2jcXqSx\" data-orig-height=\"230\" data-orig-width=\"360\"><img src=\"/media/30d9b08ac8bc5271219dcfe3c553a9e28af8e6ce_67542b2074a6.gif\" data-orig-height=\"230\" data-orig-width=\"360\" srcset=\"/media/5da7f96e7655623c1f894f85869214fee578a630_876315042ff7.gif 75w, /media/92e2df6d1cc483eee7a678bc4c4f6385d4dd6a41_d933364914a8.gif 100w, /media/1480016d24c34c41c302f7a9d14cc198016070f0_acfcf3f8c5d4.gif 250w, /media/f90fe1bcd86bc284994b7908dc3379e3c3cc689a_839759e2d702.gif 360w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 360px) 100vw, 360px\"/></figure></div></blockquote>\n<p>Well, I experienced it as that narrative, but rather than &ldquo;the old personality became unviable, so I generated a new one&rdquo;, it&rsquo;s possible that selfhood-focused brain structures became so affected it was not possible to maintain <b>any</b> personality and by the time that wore off permanent damage had altered mine</p>", "thumbnail_url": "https://kontextmaschine.com/media/30d9b08ac8bc5271219dcfe3c553a9e28af8e6ce_67542b2074a6.gif", "thumbnail_width": 360, "thumbnail_height": 230}