So something about coming to read/write vibes and not just content is I kind of assumed content was all there was, and if I hadn’t engaged with someone’s the circumstances just hadn’t been right. But now I’m realizing some people really are just vibes, and enough people are at least partially both that maybe their content doesn’t need to bear the full weight of personhood and what of it I saw before was a much larger share of the total and doesn’t imply further depths elsewhere.
And I still at least have the content-centric worldview I developed in youth, and so the upshot of all this is I feel much more contempt for humanity than the old personality ever did. Which is maybe why just as I become much more socially fluid I have damn near totally abandoned human contact.
Again, it’s ironic that I’m now more charming and socially self-validating and people react to me so much more positively and approvingly since the personality change when from my perspective I no longer assume value in people or feel bound by any prerational morality just as I become so much better at using them
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