As someone who was really curious for a long time about bihacking before just deciding (realizing?) I'm bi, I often wonder how many people are attracted to the idea who aren't \"already bi\", in some sense. You don't frame your own experience this way but, I don't know, any thoughts about that? Like, I'm still not sure whether to think my sexuality changed or my understanding of it changed, or if there's a meaningful distinction.
Oh no I wanted to be but just wasn’t, after psyching myself up enough I was like “maybe I am bi by now” and went home from a bar in LA with this couple and was hooking up with the guy and like no, I remember thinking “this is like giving someone a massage with your mouth while they choke you”, no spark whatsoever, couldn’t keep jerking off if I turned my mind to guys, all that, and its totally different now, just like a switch flipped and I can find value in maleness and male sexuality. Something in the vicinity of “gender euphoria” about inhabiting a male body, too
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