\nOkay to make some things clear:
- I know damn well all this stuff happening to me is the result of a brain infection doing brain damage.
- It is NOT getting worse with time, threatening to suck me into a vortex of destruction.
- In fact, as it cyclically recurs in largely the exact same forms I’m used to, it’s milder each time, and I can see an intermediate horizon past which I barely notice it anymore.
- Pretty much every Long Covid patient I’ve heard of under general, neurological, or other specialist medical supervision says that the doctors at best diagnose and analyze the body’s recovery as and to the degree it happens, if not actively chase unhelpful treatments
- If there were something doctors could do, I would not be a priority candidate for it. I am in the “will recover fine on his own” triage tranch.
- It would’ve been nice to be a medicoscientific source, but I’ve already progressed so far without observation I wouldn’t be too useful as a case study anyway, and this is not exactly a rare disease that will be scrounging for patients to investigate.
- Instead I think I might be more useful as a more humanities-oriented example. All of you, when you hear of “someone with long covid”, you now have me as a reference example. (Compare Twitter, where the usual catastrophizing=engagement dynamic centers quite different examples)
Also cause ~brain damage~ has a mystique as permanent and additive, like “oh you just keep getting a little more eventually you’ll exhaust your reserves!”
Like I’m pretty sure we’re not looking at permanent cell death here in part because as it grows milder each case it’s ridiculous to imagine it as fresh brain learning anew every time, like for 2 hours every few months I get fuzzy on some sort of social subroutine then redevelop it from scratch, naw it’s just creating temporary noise in the line
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