obiternihili:

obiternihili:

there’s a certain poster here that i keep hearing is a reactionary

before his personality change he seemed like

so there’s a personality type that finds esoteric grimness/the noun form of sardonic funny, not in a haha way, but in like a Russian humor we’re all going to die, oh i love you so much i want to kill myself, cheers to the economy you were a great friend, type of way

it’s not left or right wing

but if you don’t read it with the layer of sarcasm/irony it engenders you come out thinking that personality type’s advocating for universal genocide

when in truth it’s just a kind of nerd who’s deeply uncomfortable with the state of things and what you’re reading is something between a curse against the demiurge and whatever you call that displacement thing that people do when they’re reading about really difficult bullshit, like titoism, central asian pannationalism, imperial Chinese omnicides, background death cults operating in weird political theaters unlike the american one, etc

I guess I always read that poster as having that personality type

or somehow missed the times he genuinely nazi posted

and like to be fair that’s the core of the whole “darkly hinting” bullshit of the alt right, but leftists do it all the time too

maybe i just never interacted with him when he had a mask down and was just being himself in a specifically political context, saying his beliefs outright. something idealists tend to do more than fatalists

not sure if it’s moot now tho

I am a *notoriously* bad judge of character also

or I’m not but bad incidences have convinced me I am

Is this me?

I’d say I’m mostly going in a “thou too art mortal” sense. “Thou too aren’t moral”? That moralized understandings of recent history leave us with a distorted view only seeing continuity with the parts currently designated “the good guys” and we need counterweighting to realize where the “bad guys” – who were just as much humans in history operating under forces – are clearer precedent

Like, the Reagan ‘80s.

Whether you take an almost normie “morning in America” view or a leftist critical history, what do you do with the contemporaries calling him a new Hitler? If you’re shorting them, what about the fact Reagan did start a rearmament program to revive the economy, make geopolitical threats, and abandon national minorities only recently taken as objects of care?

Like as we enter what I suspect could be a new reactionary period, the fact that last time we engaged in policy that could reasonably called Nazi-esque, and this is generally celebrated as a success laying the foundations for subsequent decades of glory is a pretty important baseline that no one seems to be highlighting so sure, I will.

I was maybe early 2010s NRx-adjacent, in range of seeing the whole “Axis of Evil” period here (while also in range of commies before it was obvious how the 2010s would go), got invited to join a few “dissident right” projects but they all looked like dead ends and I was right.

The anxiety disorder plays a part here, in that in making any point I was prominently aware of the most negative possible sequence proceeding from there and felt compelled in the name of fairness to acknowledge that