{"version": "1.0", "type": "rich", "title": "Been contemplating my mortality lately but with the anxiety-zeroing I have no fear of death and if I start to worry about...", "author_name": "kontextmaschine", "author_url": "https://kontextmaschine.com", "provider_name": "kontextmaschine", "provider_url": "https://kontextmaschine.com", "url": "https://kontextmaschine.com/post/709359894086713344/", "html": "<p>Been <a href=\"https://at.tumblr.com/kontextmaschine/i-mean-by-age-my-dads-at-the-end-of-the/yws0n1bjil5e\" target=\"_blank\">contemplating my mortality</a> lately but with the anxiety-zeroing I have no fear of death and if I start to worry about physical decay I remind myself that I have direct experience of motor and mental collapse and it&rsquo;s not really that bad, but the <b>finitude</b> of it all still bugs me \u2013 the idea that I might only have as much more life experience ahead of me as I already do behind is <i>devastating</i>, even if the fact that&rsquo;s because it will be followed by eternal oblivion is just a footnote.</p>"}