kontextmaschine:

kontextmaschine:

I can see where you’re coming from but do remember I now have a completely different personality from the last time I was socially active

Also part of it is like, the stuff I had been doing for the last decade increasingly isn’t an option. Like when I came “the local pinball scene” was like 30 people who would travel around to bars with 2-4 machines, it was a cool way to basically be introduced to the Portland tradition by a bunch of veterans – a nice broad sample, from an old van-living coot to small business cool dads to Red Fang’s merch guy to kitchen staff to a lawyer to a guy who schmoozed his brewery’s beer into taps to a carpenter to all sorts of misfit weirdos…

But increasingly it’s scores of 20 and 30somethings newly arrived for post-collegiate wheely-chair careers, like not actively offputting but like… they’re Charmed viewers, at best. Don’t even write fanfic. And there’s so many, so the scene fragments around a few huge venues scattered around the metropolitan area…

Also part of it we’re coming back to a phase I was last alive for, so I now have the opportunity (with a fresh new personality!) to engage in an adult world I’d previously only seen from the outside, but also we’re now entering phases of life I’d seen in my parents, so I’m parsing how to process that example, too.