\nGetting more and more into “long COVID” stuff and yeah my experience \u2013 down to things like my hands getting anti-wet-swollen and losing any grippy ridges (in absence of sweating properly?) \u2013 is pretty much within parameters\u2026 except\u2026 the way it’s an improvement?
Like even without the anxiety stuff (which I think of as prior to, not part of my personality) just the fact that I reconstructed my personality better is maybe downstream of how I just got, via like The Lycaeum (Erowid but better in the late ‘90s) and read up on “psychonaut” “metaprogramming” and did psychedelics with an eye towards that\u2026
Like apropos of nothing in adolescence I was like “well, better learn how I can make use of the complete collapse of my sense of self to tune it up!"and then just put that on ice for decades\u2026
Same as the "let’s spend a summer making myself comfortable with the idea of being bisexual”
Oh fuck how before anyone had heard of Taylor Swift I thought that the earnest consequence of where we were at was we should worship celebrities and I worked up a thing around Alyson Hannigan\u2026
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