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zk kafka?\u201cI\u2019ll take you out to dinner if you\u2019d like to,\u201d you said. \u201cWe can go out to eat. You\u2019re really pretty. You\u2019re pretty much everything I\u2019d like to see in a woman.\u201d
\u201cBut that\u2019s impossible!\u201d I said.
\u201cWhy?\u201d
\u201cYou\u2019re too pretty, too good, too good for me!\u201d
\u201cWhat\u2019s going to happen?\u201d
\u201cWell,\u201d I said, \u201call I can do is try to keep myself from having sex with you.\u201d
\u201cHow?\u201d
\u201cWell,\u201d I said, \u201cit\u2019s something called having an erection.\u201d
\u201cI\u2019ve never heard of that.\u201d
\u201cSo you haven\u2019t heard of it. It\u2019s not a good thing. It\u2019s a disease, you know. If you have it, you feel very sad and lonely. You have sex without wanting to have sex. It makes you so sad.\u201d
\u201cNo,\u201d you said. \u201cYou don\u2019t want it like that. Do you want it like that?\u201d
\u201cIt would be terrible! It\u2019s a disease! I would be too upset to have sex. I don\u2019t think I could have sex if you touched me!\u201d
\u201cI\u2019m going to do it anyway.\u201d
\u201cOh, don\u2019t do that! Please. Please don\u2019t do that.\u201d
\u201cDo you want it? You\u2019re a good-looking boy.\u201d
\u201cI am a bad boy. It\u2019s horrible for me to say it. I\u2019m very much a bad boy.\u201d
\u201cWho wants a boy like you? You\u2019re cute.\u201d
\u201cI know,\u201d I said.
\u201cWould you like to know what it\u2019s like to have it?\u201d
\u201cNo, no. I\u2019d rather not.\u201d
\u201cWhy? Don\u2019t you want it to know?\u201d
\u201cIt\u2019s not healthy, I think, to know about things like that. It would make me worse.\u201d
\u201cNo,\u201d you said. \u201cYou are better. You\u2019re a boy. You\u2019re a boy who can know things and be happy. I\u2019m going to love you so much.\u201d
I said nothing. I was holding my breath.
\u201cI want to put my head in your lap,\u201d you said. \u201cLet me put my head in your lap. Let me put my head in your lap because I want to kiss your legs.\u201d
\u201cWould you like me to kiss your legs, too?\u201d
You did not say anything. You just kept looking at my crotch. You kept looking at my crotch.
\u201cKiss you, please.\u201d
\u201cHow often do you have this disease?\u201d
\u201cDon\u2019t! Please don\u2019t ask me about it! Please don\u2019t ask me anything about it! I don\u2019t want to think about it.\u201d
You did not say anything. You did not say anything for a long time. Finally you said, \u201cAll right.\u201d
\u201cAll right. I won\u2019t.\u201d