being poor means that every couple months my productivity gets derailed because I have to make some sort of phone call, which is...
being poor means that every couple months my productivity gets derailed because I have to make some sort of phone call, which is going to take at least an hour (mostly hold time), and usually requires some kind of preparation, and has to happen right at the start of my normal workday if it’s going to happen at all (or else I won’t even get a spot in the queue), and is going to leave me too terrified/enraged/something to focus on anything else for the rest of the day
and I’m too much of an ADHD disaster for this to be an easy process so it actually takes me several attempts and ruins several workdays, not just one
it is so goddamn exhausting to have trauma about interacting with unaccountable bureaucracies and also rely on those bureaucracies for food and medical care. I think the people responsible for my bureaucracy trauma should have to make these goddamn phone calls for me. that would be fair.
you still have a lot of stupid bureaucracy shit to deal with when you’re rich, but you sometimes get to choose a different bureaucracy if the one you’re dealing with is bullshit, or spend more money to circumvent them, or pay somebody to help you deal with them. I have none of those luxuries.
almost all of the “help” that pretends to exist for people like me is only for telling you how to do things. at some point social services convinced themselves that doing things for people (who are already overstressed and exhausted) is bad for them, they should Be Responsible! but I know perfectly well what I’m supposed to do, and I think delegating a task instead of trying to force myself to do something that triggers me (and massively detracts from my efforts to get a damn job) IS “being responsible” fuck you very much.
On a more meta level, delegation is what management IS. If delegation is irresponsible, everyone who manages people is inherently irresponsible. Btw accepting that delegation is ok is a REALLY important mental shift for a lot of personal and professional life.
I am starting to notice a regular trend of people attributing to ADHD or autism what is (maybe those comorbid with) anxiety
Which, not judgy! Until COVID in my brain specifically wiped out anxiety two years ago I don’t know if I could distinguish that myself!
But it’s a thing. Anxiety: like Listening to Prozac did with depression, we’ve got to face that it’s its own thing.