I guess it’s time to clarify this: where near the onset of this “personality change” I might have attributed it, for lack of a better guess, to psychic unrest from this time I self-heimliched myself and saved my life earlier that year, I now firmly attribute it to COVID, though the lifesaving stuff might have been an influence on the edges as I reassembled a personality

My logic is basically repeated Occam’s Razor: I experienced a random breakdown of fundamental sense of selfhood in ways that reminded me of psychiatric a/o psychedelic drugs and then noticed what I had taken as basic constants of life experience change as variables. Also, I shortly after this experienced sensory and muscle control issues in my limbs that were clearly neurological in origin. Were these two manifestations of the same phenomena, or unrelated ones happening simultaneously?

Okay, now, this happened in Portland in April 2020, when the plague was first spreading, from Seattle in particular, we avoided touching surfaces but no one wore masks yet, I had all these weird nerve issues first setting in a week after a period of intense unexpected fatigue with my senses of smell and taste muted. Was that related, or just a coincidence?