I suppose I should specify that I don’t have a sense that this nerve crisis or whatever moved me from a hetero state to a bi state or anything, but rather that as part of the process of being an embodied self-aware thing I had formed a self, that self was straight, the nerve thing degraded it to the point it wasn’t viable (I remember I was a body in a place, and I was a string of memories that explained how that came to be and I was even a pretty good reasoning capacity but I wasn’t until in retrospect particularly even the consciousness that noticed this) so I had to form another one, and that one formed bi through processes I can’t tell but might be somehow related, like other changes, to the fact I did this one not as a child but a pretty aware adult who had even tried bihacking once