You're sounding more unginged than usual lately. Have you considered getting your psychological state evaluated by a professional?
\n\n\nIt’s really a more hinged trip backwards through where I was in June or July of 2020, so I’ve been through it before and can enjoy the experience
Also, what is with the constant concern trolling for me to see a professional? This is tumblr, we self-diagnose like men!
Realistically, I work on my narrative issues myself rather than outsourcing to a therapist, and part of what I was getting at with the Halcyon + On + On stuff is the entire experience is less bothersome than I’d expect of side effects of psychiatric medication, which can be so pronounced that people in treatment for issues far more serious often desist.
Oh also this point is maybe overlooked: before the mental stuff came back in attenuated form the physical stuff (mostly) ended. I say mostly cause I’m realizing some stuff I classified as “physical” was, like the ability to model the rotation of 3D objects in my mind and some of the timing of physical action, really core “mental”, but my arms, legs, eyes, and tongue are fully under control like they hadn’t been since when the 2020 breakdown progressed from mental to physical
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