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Been reevaluating the personality change as more continuous with the physical stuff and a neural issue (maybe "Long COVID")...

Been reevaluating the personality change as more continuous with the physical stuff and a neural issue (maybe “Long COVID”) lately in large part because the experience has changed a bit this week in ways that grant perspective.

For one, the sensation in my arms has moved to a heaviness and lightning racing somewhere in the range from the biceps to the fingers, in a way that’s really distinguishable from the fingertip numbness (and makes me realize some of my “carpal tunnel” issues months ago were really that)

For two, in a way unlike any since my anxiety went down and I lost the ability to really worry, I have the sense of something …looming. It doesn’t feel like I need to avoid or prepare for it, though it is possible to resolve poorly, past that I’m not really sure, I just can’t fully relax in Readiness for it.

For three, I tire easier. I can go to bed after just 7 hours awake, I pretty much have to after 13, and I can sleep for up to 15 hours at a stretch

Honestly any or all of these might just be the effect of caffeine withdrawal and this being my rest week for creatine.