Huh, I hadn’t traced that parallel.

(For readers new to kontextlore, around middle school I tried bihacking myself, felt like I succeeded at least a little and finally sucked dick early in LA after college [after going home from dive strip bar Cheetahs at last call with a male-female pair and then her girlfriend came over and they proposed some strip card game]. Only to realize that while I had made myself totally comfortable with the idea and practice of being bi I was not in fact into men and it was as unrewarding as you’d expect giving someone a massage with your mouth while they choke you. And the fact that I never fantasized about them should’ve been a sign. Now I do though, that’s the main thing making me confident here)