So yeah, I’m able to see with both eyes at once again totally fine now at any distance, by looking beyond what feels to me as the right distance, whereas looking at it had been giving me radially tilted double vision.

Increasingly suspicious that this is true binocular 3D vision for the first time whereas I was knitting together 2D pictures before. When I close one eye things seem suddenly flatter now in a way they didn’t before.

When this started two weeks ago I noticed myself looking through a door, lining up another door down the hall with its edge and kinda twitching my head back and forth, I realized oh my God I’m trying to check parallax – see how my visual picture changes when I move my head a little, to determine how far away objects are. At my last eye exam the doctor pointed out I was subtly tilting my head to do that.

I mean I always thought I was focusing my eyes together, closer or further away, and the rest was blurrier, but I guess even monocular cameras do that.

That would explain why at first I had a hard time parsing information from peripheral vision and had a weird tilt-shift sense, why the “focusing my eyes through and past the double vision” reminds me of Magic Eye books, why my vision is bobbing as I walk (but less and less now, as I learn how to stabilize it)

Like, all the “personality change” stuff showed up by a peak of April 2020, but guys, this is still going on. Like all of the leg clumsiness I’ve had lately? Well I think part of it was just adjusting inputs on where my feet were (peripheral vision, remember?) but like, the hitch in my step I’d been talking about? Receding. And, after a life of low arches I notice I’m raising up on the edge of my feet and adjusting my balance with my ankles not my calves.

Just like the personality change, none of this was willed, it’s just… happening? It’s like my systems are getting a live patch upgrade. The only possible agent I can think of is if that time in March 2020 I was fatigued for a week really was COVID and these are those lingering nervous/psych effects I hear about. But if it manifested like this you’d think you’d have heard about it.

But like, “how was your plague, kontextmaschine?” Well, I watched from home as everything I was worried about in terms of the future collided with each other and wiped out, and meanwhile I used the downtime to install some major updates, apparently.