Realizing that “furry” as the idiom I primally grokked same-sex attraction didn’t mean an otherkin/fursuit fetish but, as Colin Spacetwinks has pointed out, that it’s the one genre of gay erotica that doesn’t seem to be hypersexualizing some particular aspect into absurdity, it’s Just Some Guys who like sucking each other off

And it’s weird that’s in the funny animal art tradition but it’s not like it would be better as newspaper comics or the Liefield tradition (and as someone who came up in the 90s on pro comics artist lewds and “Tijuana Bible” h-doujins of like, Blondie on alt.binaries.pictures.erotica.cartoons I speak with authority here)

In live-action I guess I go for the “emo boys” stuff, I like that hesitance-not-reluctance. “Twink” is used too promiscuously to be that useful. Like sometimes it seems to be just “he’s too fresh to pitch as daddy”, then you’ve got your real Saint Sebastian types, then just “skinny”

Then there’s the ones that can kinda sell adolescence, none so well as the End Of the World video but that’s porn production values for you, and I get the eager vulnerability but any morality aside I’m realizing I just didn’t have this sexuality in my adolescence to form triggerable associations – absolutely no memories of the beautiful shining boy I crushed on at 14, the mate I wished saw me as a mate, the me that wished some guy would discover me, etc.