glumshoe:

[hand hovers over crystal ball] when you were a tween you got really into Arthuriana and you thought the aesthetic idea of questing knights was really cool but the religious and patriarchal aspects of medieval chivalry bothered you so you coped through swords and sorcery fantasy fiction and went through an obligatory phase where you looked into Wicca but discovered that it had no appeal to you and for a while you wanted to change your name to Rowan because it was earthy and gender-neutral but when you got older you decided against it and either kept your original name or switched to something ambiguous or masculine of center and maybe you described yourself as butch or non-binary or trans but you privately see your idealized gender goals as “has a sword and a sense of dignity and a Quest” which doesn’t make any sense really but as an adult you channeled your misplaced knight errant fantasies into a passion for environmental justice or ecology or wildlife conservation and picked up a diagnosis or two that explains why you are weird at parties