Actually kinda worried how good I am at apologizing in this new personality’s up phases. I feel basically no shame or guilt and I have some sort of module going that just knows the right thing to say, so it feels kinda weightless.
And I’m probably apologizing for something impulsive and disinhibited I did or said, and even if I’m trying not to like, use mental illness as an excuse, the issue is these weren’t things I thought over and decided on, I feel no ownership of them and feel free to disclaim them
So feels kinda like cheap grace. Is this how “feeling” types had been understanding apologies all this time and why they’re Like That? Do my actions even mean anything when I’m like this?
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