{"version": "1.0", "type": "rich", "title": "Someone I know had a mental break that presented as being intense about politics for the first few days, and again kinda...", "author_name": "kontextmaschine", "author_url": "https://kontextmaschine.com", "provider_name": "kontextmaschine", "provider_url": "https://kontextmaschine.com", "url": "https://kontextmaschine.com/post/625914195398082560/", "html": "<p><a class=\"tumblr_blog\" href=\"/post/625864696435785728/\" target=\"_blank\">kontextmaschine</a>:</p><blockquote><p>Someone I know had a mental break that presented as being intense about politics for the first few days, and again kinda impressed I held it together for mine</p><p>Like the &ldquo;make yourself sleep even if you&rsquo;re full of energy and ideas, else you&rsquo;ll be full of energy about the kind of ideas you have after 90 hours awake&rdquo; AND the &ldquo;if you&rsquo;re absolutely convinced of something that sounds like something a crazy person would think when you say it out loud, and everyone you know who you normally trust thinks it&rsquo;s crazy, then no matter how compelling it feels, assume you&rsquo;re being crazy&rdquo; rules, I have those for a reason</p></blockquote>\n<p>Okay now that you&rsquo;ve had time to digest that and I look wise and in control of my crazy, judgement call:</p><p>A few days ago, after all the symptoms of my recent crazy seem to have dissipated, I started getting the sense I could selectively alter the intensity, and thus range, of my senses, from 5ft to 60ft or so.</p><p>This was <i>all</i> the senses in unison, including the weird ones like reading air currents and electromagnetic fields with your arm hair. It doesn&rsquo;t improve my vision as in make it sharper, I just draw more <i>information</i> from what I see</p><p>It first presented as a white wireframe-like sphere around me that expanded and contracted a few times with the senses following accordingly, then I could do it freely.</p><p>Yes, <i>exactly</i> like a vidya tutorial, I even noticed at the time the sphere reminded me of Parasite Eve targeting</p><p>So, question is: crazy in a way that might reflect something real? Or just crazy?</p><p>Points in favor of reflecting something real</p><ul><li>I can volitionally alter my heart rate and blood pressure in a way that external observers would agree is real, maybe I can control this</li><li>Like premoderns would expect an angel or diety to deliver them new abilities, I <b>would</b> expect them to just manifest with a tutorial</li><li>The last real crazy period I was seeing in HD and hearing cats stalk through grass a block away, and things like the bisexuality and the disinhibition seem to have stayed in manageable form, why not that?</li><li>&ldquo;weirdos who lonely contemplate themselves long enough develop superpowers&rdquo; is a pretty pan-cultural thing</li></ul><p>In favor of just crazy</p><ul><li>You&rsquo;re a good enough storyteller you can stitch together bullshit as an authentic story of your life, and every account of your life as coherent should be discounted like 50% and then another 50% for like how under your pose of humility you&rsquo;re clearly starting to depict yourself as some sort of demigod</li><li>Super powers, what the fuck? Any &ldquo;increase in information&rdquo; is probably you interpolating bullshit noise from your brain and considering it meaningful</li><li>Vidya tutorials, what the FUCK, no</li></ul>"}