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Would you feel comfortable elaborating on your experiences as a trans desister? Did you ever try HRT? Did you detransition? Do...

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Would you feel comfortable elaborating on your experiences as a trans desister? Did you ever try HRT? Did you detransition? Do you consider yourself ex-trans? Understandable if it's not something you want to talk about on your blog, I've just never talked to someone who previously id'd as trans and now doesn't.

I, to some degree and at some varying level of consciousness, thought of myself as female from like 3rd to 9th grade, this would be the 90s. I was aware of the last wave of transition, the Wendy Carlos Williams/Renée Richards 70s thing, and at one point said that was my intention. (The kids on the playground teased me for how expensive it would be)

When I grew leg hair I shaved it, wore nail polish and collected but did not use facial makeup. Religiously read Seventeen-type magazines in the library and looked forward to being a fully realized teenage girl. Wore a gf’s skirt to school once, a teacher I would’ve expected to be harsher was just “eeh, doesn’t flatter you” and he was right.

Tapered off in parallel with finally finding a male friend group in 9th grade. I still preferred female avatars in games, had a running “joke” about how I was “really” a lesbian because the area around me counted as the Floating Island of Lesbos. Been strikingly resonant with actual WLW types since but a little wary now after several moving to take sexual advantage of me.