It was suggested that what I’m experiencing might be considered as a “mixed episode”, that does fit the experience \u2013 reduced sleep in unstable schedules, some greater mental flow but increased agitation and anxiety where recent episodes have trended to radically suppressed
Might even account for old-type “dirty” episodes (unfocused and irritably emphatic, as opposed to “crystalline”, clear and given to making wide-ranging connections)
The sudden anxiety is the first time I’ve been able to discern that particular flavor so clearly and I am getting interesting effects from tracking it - I notice I’m more inclined to interpret small miscellaneous sounds as signs of\u2026?? or even strain to discern faint sounds better for the purpose of ??, which is not helpful when you’re trying to fall asleep (my number #1 rule for handling this stuff is to make sure to sleep cause even if you’re full of energy and motivation your ideas still get dumb and psychotic at the same rate without it)
Some fireworks last night bugged me a lot more than ones last week, which I guess is a data point in Fireworks Discourse
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