At some level it feels like the whole “new personality” thing is a reward for getting good and introspective enough to parse mental instability in the first place. Like oh, you mastered that challenge? Well let’s kick up the difficulty a notch \u2013 I’m not sure how well this is coming across, but the mood swings are much less stable and predictable, come closer together, and leave greater lasting impacts now \u2013 but unlock greater rewards.
Like, I didn’t even realize how much anxiety I was carrying until it just left, and in its absence I can\u2026 talk people into bed? Okay? Honestly, I’ve envied that since adolescence. I guess I haven’t thought about it much but I actively wanted to be bi once, too.
Honestly the actual sexuality is like the least significant part of that self-discovery plotline. Like okay now it kind of warms my heart to know I can turn a guy on just by looking up and making eye contact when I’m sucking his dick, I guess it’s interesting to realize that’s a feeling you can have, but that my fursona is feline? That actually recontextualizes a lot of my life!
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