Shoulda knocked on wood when I said that the depressive phases don’t announce themselves clearly, cause now I’m experiencing almost a mirror version of up phases where every fiber of my being is practically sparkling with intensity but this time it’s about feeling bad

I think the main component is free-floating anxiety, which in turn inspires tighter muscle tone, etc. And then on unraveling that thread, I’m starting to think this might just be the baseline anxiety the “old personality” was carrying around any given day, and feeling it back again all at once now that I’ve gotten used to doing without, it’s really quite confining. Guess I’ll just pet my cat and wait for it to pass.