Yes, i see the thematic resonance. But I’ve never sexualized that and projected it onto men before.

Like, I’ve realized part of how I understand myself as a sub was being more specifically into Fdom and part of that was a sexualization of fundamental aspects of society. Like, there’s no transgressive frisson in a guy being a dominant penetrator, or honestly to me the idea of a guy being penetrated.

And even then, that’s manifested in particular tastes. Yanderes, sure. Shy librarians who strap it on and peg you, fuck yes. Honestly realizing some of my interest in lesbian stuff was taking it as Fdom. CFNM? Dominatrixes? Degrading? Does nothing for me. Findom just sounds stupid.

Like the issue is I don’t have any of those things for guys. Honestly my best angle might be being pretty and desired more than serving men per se, autoandrophilia. I talked about jacking off turning me on cause I have a hard dick in my hand, maybe that’s where so much gay gym culture and the idea of gayness as vanity comes from, that you can be something that you get off on

Whole thing really helping me understand women, too. Would not be surprised if the “girls are more bi” thing is related to stereotypical feminine flirtyness or exhibitionism, how many girls who were sleeping with me, a dude, who admitted to getting off to themselves in a mirror