I’m not sure if the reason I feel unsettled about the American Dream is that it seems too dark, or that it seems too ominous, or...
I’m not sure if the reason I feel unsettled about the American Dream is that it seems too dark, or that it seems too ominous, or that it seems too “forward”. Either that. I’ve had bad and good nights. I don’t feel quite that certain anymore, but I feel unsettled. And I want to believe that I can do something better, that I can make this work. I want to believe that I’m better than what I’m feeling. I want to believe that I’m not the sort of guy I used to be.
I’m stuck in a house that’s on fire. I don’t know how long it’ll last. I’m tired and I’m hungry and I’m cold. I can barely see anything. The fire is coming out of the vents. The girl who lived here with me is dead. Her name was Mary. I don’t know why I’m alive. I’m going to die. I’m going to die. I’m going to die. Stop the fire! I can’t do it. I can’t stop it. I can’t stop it. I can’t stop it. It’s coming out of the vents. I can’t stop it.
holy shit frank call 911
Thanks. I keep having this experience where when I see things that I should be able to understand, but are not quite right in some way, I instead become convinced that they are wrong and that I’m in a bad place in which to live.
if this is the American Dream I’d hate to see the American Nightmare
Hearing the Dream is about the horrible things you’re capable of doing to someone when you treat them badly. The Nightmare is that you can’t even notice the difference. The Dream is a good story that you want to live in because it sounds good and you want to live in it because you’re not very good at reading people. The Nightmare is very bad at not noticing the difference.
thanks! once again I’m terrified