am no longer particularly bisexual, man wasn’t that a trip, maybe now my new “fluffy” (as contrasted to prev. “dirty” and “crystalline”) highs will always have that? It’s at least a sign to watch for

I learned things from it, “a new perspective” is cliche but rn I feel like I’ve seen other bits of things I only got a slice of for a while

experienced it more under the influence of my followership of (overlapping) fujoshi and genderweirds than Tom of Finland macho macho men so worry (I can worry again!) about how that might bend me

But honestly if I divert this into grokking chicks grokking dudes, fine. One thing I got this time around, I tried to fantasize taking it in the butt from a dude by porting over pegging stuff?

Realized that emotionally didn’t work at all, it’s not about giving sensation to her dick it’s 100% Fdom about her giving you the experience of being penetrated as an inversion of the heterosexual order

What did work was hetero creampie stuff, about the dick as a living thing you communicate with inside you by touch, almost a language in how it changes shape in response

And the way you can paint that with an emotional palette of pride in your work into control over them into degradation in being used back to pride in being useful

Grokking that makes a lot of m/f stuff make more sense