One thing about the newtype up phases, I still have the racing mind full of thoughts, and like a new +CHA social bonus, but I don’t anymore have the +INT bonus that helps organize and write out those thoughts

It’s not so bad that I’m doing the classic pressured speech thing of putting them out without the polish or connective tissue to make them coherent just to clear them from my head

Once again, this is the kind of thing that should bother me, but it comes with such an anxiolytic effect that I physically cannot bring myself to worry (or, I suspect, feel shame or guilt)