{"version": "1.0", "type": "rich", "title": "Feelin\u2019 out-of-sorts lately; sure that\u2019s not unique, not sure I have anything productive to add about it Where younger it was...", "author_name": "kontextmaschine", "author_url": "https://kontextmaschine.com", "provider_name": "kontextmaschine", "provider_url": "https://kontextmaschine.com", "url": "https://kontextmaschine.com/post/617378756661755904/", "html": "<p>Feelin\u2019 out-of-sorts lately; sure that\u2019s not unique, not sure I have anything productive to add about it</p><p>Where younger it was some shounen-ass \u201cI\u2019ll use my knowledge of what came before to help keep us on the right path!\u201d recently I\u2019m \u201cyeah I guess I can think of a situation that somewhat resembles where the winds of fate and chaos blow us on any given day\u201d, but no one asked and I don\u2019t see much gain in volunteering<br/></p><p>I guess a nice thing is I am relieved of any guilt re: my laziness or Hamletish dithering, though I was never as as bothered as some of the insult anons pecking at me; there is nothing I could have done with my life to put myself in a solid and durable position thereby, if there\u2019s anything to put me in a solid position going forward it\u2019s not clear to invest in even now, trying to nurture some green shoot of an enterprise before this wouldve been a fool\u2019s errand<br/></p><p>Even before the virus, the people I\u2019ve known beavering away at law, media, medicine, academia, (normiedom, hetero-bougie marriage), all of them made the sacrifices the earlier generations demanded but lately had been soft-pedaled, none of them met the material or psychic rewards promised.</p><p>It was all dead-ending and let\u2019s hope this allows a shakeup to something new and not a few grey porridge postwar UK decades<br/></p>"}