Man Monday was a pretty solid day and it started before I was even awake - had possibly the most intense set of dreams in my life (and each one involved discovering a new building on my old college campus) but yesterday - yesterday night especially - was just grinding and mean.

And the weird thing was everyone seemed tense yesterday. It was like a double full moon. Maybe it was mood swings from the contested beginning of spring

(or maybe I got in a bad feedback loop? this distant, superior manner – I’ve intentionally cultivated it since before I was 6 and I suspect it might be a defense against the fact that I’m actually too good at reading and mirroring emotions)

I should find another dojo, I miss hitting people and getting hit.