all the “my fingertips are numb”

(it was really just the tips that you couldn’t call the “front” or “back”, it really only interfered with scraping up coins with my fingernails and picking my nose)

bits have receded

like, literally receded, they only exist from the tips of my fingernails to the first ¼th as a mild tingling

as I swing from depressive to hypomanic

this is so fucking dumb, this physicalization, but I guess it’s real even if it’s psychosomatic, like how I was pee-shy with anyone else in the bathroom for the last year of LA