rendakuenthusiast:

kontextmaschine:

also me: so you know how you wish in childhood you were hurt and used and objectified more?

me: boy do I!

also me: and how you identified as a girl from like 3rd to 7th grade?

me: it was a phase, but I draw insight from it still, yes

also me: and how multiple people have said you’ve got a weirdly second-wave feminist vibe given ::gestures at everything::

me: well look at the above, as a precocious kid I first came of age girl-tinted in the early 90s

also me: so have you ever stopped to think that what you’re really envying is “the girlhood experience”?

me: …well shit, I have NOW

What changed in 7th grade?

That’s a good question. I was gonna say well 7th was the last year like that and the change really came in 8th grade but I’m thinking back all my examples are actually a year later in 9th so I changed it. So, 9th grade?

I got my first girlfriend? But I don’t know that she was healthy for me or the answer here: she inspired the next paragraph and also some great bodice crossdressing at the renn faire:

I wore a skirt to school one day and whatever pushback I got was constructive? Like a crusty teacher you’d think who’d be the one to blow up was like “ah, doesn’t flatter you” and that lead me to realize that clothes weren’t just culturally marked, girl stuff draped from hips and tits and ass I didn’t have, and the guy equivalent would be like trench coats and dusters and suit jackets that draped from shoulders

I made guy friends?

I just grew out of it?

I dunno, looking back huh, I feel like I should have a better answer there.