No, there’s a dimension to the episodes I classify on a spectrum of “dirty” to “crystalline”, and it’s only the more crystalline ones that are that productive, the dirty ones have a lot of energy but poorly focused and directed and they can be kinda frustrating feeling of just general “intensity” that I’m sure makes me a pain to interact with

On the other hand the more crystalline ones have a risk of going too far, seeing webs of meaning connecting everything to everything and getting megalomaniacal, honestly I think monetizeyourcat got consumed that way after a while, “found a lunar cult oriented around transformative motherhood” is a pretty classic way to go overboard though lbr

So I try to keep it close to the redline but not over, just inbounds. Liiiiiiike, I think my Taylor Swift analysis is pretty clever and important, and I’ll back it up, but at the same time I am aware that I’m saying that a female celebrity’s songs and actions have hidden double meanings I can discern that reveal her in-plain-sight if you know what to look for conspiracy to control the world AND how she has a special rapport with me. Sooooo, I try to keep a handle on that.

The real fuck of a thing is when I’m in high crystalline mode I can reverse-engineer people’s mental state and figure out just the sort of stimulus I need to introduce to essentially hack their personalities and edit them in ways more convenient to me, I try to only use that for good. I don’t think that’s really unique though, I think a lot of classic cult leader types do a lot of operating in crystalline mode, I can tell it’s what some of my hate anon types are trying to do but even where they’re decent at it, I honestly hacked defenses to that in in earlier states