etirabys:

my first preference for what to do with my life is to throw myself into selfish hedonism – if I enjoyed bingeing TV or going to parties or having lots of sex, I would be doing little else in my free time – but, because it turns out I don’t like most activities, events, noises, or people, I must reluctantly turn to complex values like civilizational progress/prosperity and art and ethics for the psychological rewards that make life bearable