I dunno, I am a little happy, confident, stimulated, and underslept and it manifests as a greater fluidity of pressured speech and ability to craft multi-layered self-referentiality

But I’m not sure whether to put that under a mood swing rubric cause they all have identifiable external causes

Like, im underslept cause on the road my natural cycle conflicts with “checkout at 11” and I’m stimulated cause I compensate with caffeine

If I’m confident it’s because I’ve seen a lot of things that seem to indicate that things out in the country are growing the way I wanted and predicted, to the point where I’m now concerned for overkill; I’m also seeing a lot of stuff that inspires new ideas.

I’m happy cause I’m on goddamn vacation, it’s been going great, I commune with America and took a break to go to basically the event I wanted to for 20 years and had totally stopped thinking could ever happen; one based on a genre and aesthetic specifically crafted to mimic the serotonin rush of MDMA. Like, it’ll do that.