meta-adulting level 1: realize how much your childhood memory of grown-ups acting confident, maybe overconfident, maybe uptight and controlling, was a result of no one being in control and just bluffing and improvising all the way down

meta-adulting level 2: realize how often the adults who seemed to drift above this, to have a sense of balance, to let things be, to be zen masters, were just really half-drunk or on pills all the time