Think the older guy in the house behind me was a little standoffish at first because people in this house hadn’t had the best reputation before and here I was a young guy and now the fence is falling down, but then we had to end up dealing with the trees in the right-of-way in the bit between where it parallels my yard and his, and he’s from an old-stock Cascadian family where they all ended up working with trees and wood, he was some sort of technician with the Forest Service, so we’ve really been brought together talking over tree care and local plant life and growing conditions, it’s sweet
Okay staving off the iron-hunger had been taking 3x 27 mg ferrous gluconate pills at both 9 AM and 9 PM, and I don’t think I’m even ready to go to 3/2, but for the first time since I got it three cases ago (and it had intensified with each 2 subsequent, now up to 900% RDV a day), it’s clearly decreasing in intensity.
All my symptoms seem to first have a grace period while my body figures out what to do but then recede at a pretty even rate after that (on subsequent echoes starting immediately)
Something that still dwells in my head was a bit into the personality change, after the new sexuality showed up, I got a chance to talk with some guys I knew, individually in sequence, and I was still pretty disinhibited and generally mentally straightforward, so I mentioned to them that I was bisexual now, and several took the opportunity to share tales of their sexual particularity
Which kind of came down to that though they were all heterosexual they all had different senses of what constituted “a woman” that that keyed off, and they were all aware that sometimes their senses triggered off things that were not by prevailing consensus understood to be women
Side-channeling with both my parents about each other’s developing memory issues, like haha you guys can be all cheeky but I’m gonna be the one dealing with this for the next two decades
Like this recent experience has alerted me to how far a talented mind can maintain a facade of functionality into actually becoming a collapsing shambles
Side-channeling with both my parents about each other’s developing memory issues, like haha you guys can be all cheeky but I’m gonna be the one dealing with this for the next two decades
Thinking about the delta between “this alarm’s gonna bring the cops, better book it away as fast as possible” and “this alarm’s gonna bring the cops but they’ll only take note if they see us booking away, time to casually stroll down the street”
There was a dude who showed up to a 40k tournament in nazi shit and GW had to like. “The empire sucks please it’s satire the empire is terrible it’s the entire point we Will ban you for being a nazi here.”
I think *everything* about the lore even stuff they still put out screams that they are fascist and evil and yet people still don’t get it, or actively are drawn to it anyway like yes they are fascist more of this please!
i’m gonna have to disagree with you on this, tbh–i think the fascists who love the empire are ‘getting it’ just fine.
sure, the stuff that comes out about the empire and space marines is clear that they are cruel and violent. but they are cruel and violent and right. but they’re also very very big on the heroism of the space marines, the glorious power of the god-emperor, how real the threat of chaos is. chaos as it exists in warhammer 40k is basically the fantasy of the fascist made reality–a creeping, ever-infiltrating, ontologically evil force that will take root and destroy everything if perfect purity and control are maintained for even a second. like, yes, the empire is very clearly fascist, but they exist in a setting in which fascist propaganda is fundamentally true. fascists are able to see themselves in the empire because empire is, again and again, justified and vindicated by 40k’s writing.
and tbh this was barely better in the early days, as much as people like to cry 'well it was meant to be satire’, but at least the empire used to be also extremely fucking textually useless and incompetent to the point where they were doing more harm than good. but over the years this has entirely given way to the hypercompetent Tough Men Doing What Needs Doing space marine wank that makes up 99% of 40k output nowadays
Honestly I even think ‘a universe where the premises of fascist mythology are true’ isn’t, like, an impossible conceit to do something interesting and worthwhile with. But 'and our protagonists are the literal spartinate unbermensch action heroes’ does kind of close off like 99.99% of them.
The Empire is totalitarian continental Europe as seen from late-20cen Great Britain: the Space Marines, all technologically-advanced ubermenschen stormtroopers but not enough of them, are the Nazis; the Imperial Guard, all masses of tanks and infantry kept in line by ruthless commissars, are the Red Army; and all the rococo gold-filigreed God-Emperor stuff and heresy-hunting are the Catholic Church
> The Empire is totalitarian continental Europe as seen from late-20cen Great Britain
For this reason, while the median Britisher would instinctively prefer the Empire to the race of Gundam-people, the ripoff of Heinlein’s tasteless metaphor for the Chinese, the robot Egyptians, and the worryingly French Eldar, only a clot would mistake that for actually liking them.
I maintain that the truly “British” faction in WH40K is the Orks, understood as a colorful bunch of football casuals going mental
Laughing thinking about how much internet prisses calling things “toxic” for the last two decades ultimately traces back to the Bloodshy & Avant song Britney Spears released a recording of in 2003
You know how people are like “your bartender isn’t hitting on you, charisma is part of her job”?
It’s actually an issue now that the new personality – which is apparently insanely charismatic because it’s vibed-in allistic with all the masking skill of an almost-40 autist – can’t clearly tell if he’s charmed a bartender as a bartender, as a person, or as a woman
Cruise commercials making clear how much of the value proposition is “a vacation that keeps your 5-11yo kids entertained but you don’t have to do Disney shit”
Been tidying up the backyard but every day thinking “oh while I’m at it you know what I could do?” and putting more on my plate.
Sorting through the longer calf-thick branches I had out seasoning. Debarking and I notice all these with dug-out burrowing insect trails just under the bark, later filled in with mud; might be able to do something neat with staining to highlight them.
That “grass sickle” might really be a martial arts weapon but it does in fact cut grass, got all the spots the lawnmower’s bad for and laid the cut grass atop the wood in the hollow of Blueberry Hill.
Tomorrow dragging my good garden cart (like a 2-wheeled wheelbarrow) to the little nursery down the street to buy some pots and potting soil and transplant some annuals currently in places that’re gonna be wiped out in the remodeling.
When I look in the mirror has gone from “that’s not my ideal body, but it must be under there somewhere” to “yeah, that’s my ideal body but it needs to lose some fucking weight”
Jogger taking the woodchip path past my window getting loose and half-assed with it as she goes down this right-of-way out of view but then snapping to attention and picking it up once she realizes I’m watching
Anyone know what you have to do to disconnect this connector? Pulling doesn’t work. I need to remove the control unit from my fan so I can replace the pull chain so I can turn it on in the heat.
Ah, no, pulling worked, just had to wiggle a bit.
Oh god the chain broke inside the switch housing so I have to order a new one and do some handyman-ass (“the easiest!” YouTube reassures me) rewiring
This broke early on with the brain stuff and it’s only now that I have the manual and mental dexterity to deal with it, which means I didn’t even have as much as it for that absurd 117° heat wave we had in 2020
Anyone know what you have to do to disconnect this connector? Pulling doesn’t work. I need to remove the control unit from my fan so I can replace the pull chain so I can turn it on in the heat.
Ah, no, pulling worked, just had to wiggle a bit.
Oh god the chain broke inside the switch housing so I have to order a new one and do some handyman-ass (“the easiest!” YouTube reassures me) rewiring
