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What is the memory jukebox thing?

Anonymous asked:

What is the memory jukebox thing?

Ever since Covid got into my brain in 2020 (or maybe with one of the subsequent cases where it created other “long” symptoms), if my mind picks up on some song it will start to hear it in the patterns of the incidental environmental noise around me – with the accuracy of a perfect recollection I can’t consciously realize, I’ll often reenact a song this way and then be like “oh, I forgot it had this part”.

In mentioning this around at least 1% of people consistently respond “wait everyone doesn’t do that?”

Tagged: memory jukebox neurodiversity

Tagged: badger the cat

argumate:

official-kircheis:

finally a valid use of large language models, giving time travel advisories

Tagged: androids dreaming of electric sheep

God, I have so fucking often in the last year been thinking/remembering about a song, as you do, and then been like "OH SHIT, is...

God, I have so fucking often in the last year been thinking/remembering about a song, as you do, and then been like “OH SHIT, is that someone playing that exact song in the distance right now?!” all excited before I remember that’s just how the memory jukebox thing works.

Tagged: memory jukebox

Tagged: badger the cat

I'm not accomplishing anything, which I didn't expect to while this anxiety return mania plays out, but the non-disorder anxiety...

I’m not accomplishing anything, which I didn’t expect to while this anxiety return mania plays out, but the non-disorder anxiety at least allowed me to take the initiative to make some arrangements to clear a week or two

It is funny though, I’m just not getting the restless drive to go accomplish action items so I just sit in my chair by the window, but then thinking about the fact that I’m not even though nothing’s stopping me and I could just has me in a loop thinking poorly of myself for not getting anything done even though I specifically blocked off the time to do nothing.

Anxiety, man!

Tagged: anxiety returns

Got a new mattock with a longer composite handle and boy does it chop what remains of that downhill bamboo better than that old...

Got a new mattock with a longer composite handle and boy does it chop what remains of that downhill bamboo better than that old wood-handled cultivator mattock (whose handle dried and split), but I’ve still got some pectoral muscle tweaks from all that mulch pitching to rest off before I swing it more.

Tagged: groundskeeping yard task update

Huh, my chest seems to have got a notch tighter and harder, I'd more or less stopped paying attention to that as complete...

Huh, my chest seems to have got a notch tighter and harder, I’d more or less stopped paying attention to that as complete already

Tagged: kontextmaschine loses weight

Sure enough, with the anxiety at normal I have an assessment of neighborhood future hitting between the golden glory I do at...

Sure enough, with the anxiety at normal I have an assessment of neighborhood future hitting between the golden glory I do at zero anxiety and the miserable outcomes with the anxiety disorder, that the neighborhood continues to develop but none of it is particularly for me and when I examine that – “Why are you scoffing at this restaurant for 35-year-old yuppies? You’re 45 and rich. What do you want? What do you want?” dont really have a sense of what would be, at least I have a house I can walk to a few places to eat from that’s appreciated well – in a way swamped by everything else I inherit – but honestly if that’s my criteria I should maybe go somewhere with taller buildings

Tagged: anxiety returns karafuto and friends portlandportlandportland

the fact that a river ends at the mouth implies that the source is the anus, and a river flows from anus to mouth not for this...

neighborlyarson:

madnessofmen:

madnessofmen:

the fact that a river ends at the mouth implies that the source is the anus, and a river flows from anus to mouth

not for this one I don’t think so

??????

Yeah, the different timing and motivation with which I get up, go out and do yard work, eat, go to bed, the way even when out...

Yeah, the different timing and motivation with which I get up, go out and do yard work, eat, go to bed, the way even when out I’m in a less linear bang-things-out-1-2-3 mode… that’s def. shifted back in the direction of the old personality.

Honestly can’t really tell if what I had attributed to borderline autism going away has been affected, that difference mostly shows up in social situations and I just don’t feel that outgoing rn.

Tagged: anxiety returns

You do know that the majority of teachers' unions strictly don't protect people (even members) who commit crimes against...

Anonymous asked:

You do know that the majority of teachers' unions strictly don't protect people (even members) who commit crimes against children right? And that people who are credibly accused of such a thing are rejected by unions, right? Like you know that, surely. And that the vast majority of public school teachers, especially in the US, do what they do only after years of training, are grossly underpaid, and only stay in the profession out of a genuine desire to Fucking Help Kids. You know this, right? Or are you just fucking stupid

Nah, actually as the son of a school district solicitor growing up I’m gonna insist that I had a far closer-up view on public school labor relations than you’re evincing here – like, the silly thing I’m casting “them” as doing, not realizing the conflict here? You’re doing it!

Like “ooh, they don’t protect them from the police” meh – union lawyers can totally advise them on best practices re: the police, but like, they absolutely protect them from workplace investigation and discipline, which is where the police would refer “OOOH, I heard Vicky is fucking Mr. Miller!” anyway – they might pursue further if they’re brought evidence a prosecutor could use, but why would they investigate to generate it? Police obviously do not have an interest in undermining the protections unionized public workers have won at the bargaining table, duh.

Tagged: solidarity forever

i'm the guy who writes the books that the protagonist in supernatural horror movies frantically reads somewhere in act ii. job's...

gentlyorbiting:

i’m the guy who writes the books that the protagonist in supernatural horror movies frantically reads somewhere in act ii. job’s pretty easy. lot of “legends of vampires have recurred all throughout human history” and “demonologists agree that the quickest way to un-summon a demon is to trap it in a cursed object”. no citations of course; they don’t pay me citation money. i had to learn html back in the early aughts when everyone started seeking their supernatural info on websites they found via top search engines like FINDLER and WEBSIGHT but that’s died down now which is great because i didn’t have it in me to pick up css. currently working on a new book about horses that are evil. it’s called HORSES THAT ARE EVIL in all caps so the protagonist can find it quickly to yank off the library shelf. it will be published 35 years ago.

If a male author writes online femdom porn under a female pen name and a reader offers to do free proofreading because they have...

Anonymous asked:

If a male author writes online femdom porn under a female pen name and a reader offers to do free proofreading because they have a service kink and it turns them on to be useful to a woman in this way does the author have an obligation to turn them down because they wouldn't have made the offer if aware of all the facts?

why are you asking me this.

Always funny to see someone casting shade on "defending pedophiles" turn around and praise teachers' unions. I bet they still...

Always funny to see someone casting shade on “defending pedophiles” turn around and praise teachers’ unions.

I bet they still think the majority of institutional bureaucratic apparatus in America dedicated to protecting against punishment and advancing the interests of men who had sex with underage children is Catholic!

There are about 37,000 priests and 750,000 male public school teachers in America (and as Barstool reminds, don’t count the female ones out!)

C'mon.

Tagged: sex with teenagers

Think I'm getting passed around the Discord or something, I'm getting new followers at a rate disproportionate to my other notes

kontextmaschine:

kontextmaschine:

Think I’m getting passed around the Discord or something, I’m getting new followers at a rate disproportionate to my other notes

@bambamramfan said: https://twitter.com/MILFmassacre/status/1673331974583336961

Ah okay. Oh, there’s someone in the comments I know from meatspace recognizing me. I kinda wish I had not had the anxiety back for that.

Last time someone I’ve never encountered in my life made one of these out of something I’d written it was a “macro” when Something Awful got hold of like an Anthro paper I’d written about them in like 2002.

Tagged: same as it ever was

Think I'm getting passed around the Discord or something, I'm getting new followers at a rate disproportionate to my other notes

kontextmaschine:

Think I’m getting passed around the Discord or something, I’m getting new followers at a rate disproportionate to my other notes

@bambamramfan said: https://twitter.com/MILFmassacre/status/1673331974583336961

Ah okay. Oh, there’s someone in the comments I know from meatspace recognizing me. I kinda wish I had not had the anxiety back for that.

Think I'm getting passed around the Discord or something, I'm getting new followers at a rate disproportionate to my other notes

Think I’m getting passed around the Discord or something, I’m getting new followers at a rate disproportionate to my other notes

Huh, that post is the type the old personality used to make more, I noticed as writing it. And poking around in the background,...

Huh, that post is the type the old personality used to make more, I noticed as writing it. And poking around in the background, just like “someone is wrong on the internet”, “people do not fully appreciate all the history that prefigured and informs contemporary issues” is the kind of thing whose felt imperative of addressing seems to correspond to anxiety levels.

So, there’s your explanation for that, “that creator isn’t producing your favorite kind of content anymore” was 100% a “his mental issues have cleared and he’s in a better place” thing.

Tagged: kontextmaschine

Like, I'll totally agree that California NIMBYs are ridiculous and have committed the state to a poorly chosen path, but I don't...

Like, I’ll totally agree that California NIMBYs are ridiculous and have committed the state to a poorly chosen path, but I don’t think you guys appreciate how very explicitly central “a civilization where everyone lives in a small-town environment with direct exposure to undeveloped nature” has been to the California Dream

Like before even the postwar Golden Age buildout under Gov. Brown the Elder that really instantiated this suburban paradise, the prewar boom of LA was very commonly framed – embraced by boosters to draw more residents – in terms of a job-rich city that uniquely didn’t have “slum” housing.

(You don’t even hear about “slum clearance” – the postwar practice of demolishing blocks at a time and giving the former residents intentions of something better that much anymore, but large areas of downtown-adjacent land in American cities was hyper-dense and low quality tenements or often formerly comfortable-class housing that had been subdivided all to hell)

California had an idiom for “life at high residential density” – the crowded, warrenlike Chinatowns of LA and especially SF since the Gold Rush, chaotically full of improvised enterprise, drug addiction, and murderous gang violence!

In the early 1980s, Long Beach – the industrialized working class shore to the south of LA, kind of its Queens, was like “ha-HA, we have filled this wonderful location at low bungalow density, time to upzone so as to keep this a functional area for working-class life!”

Of course the thing is the 1980s in Southern California went on to feature a massive illegal immigration wave (Cheech Marin’s 1987 Born in East L.A. is called that because it’s about an American-born bilingual Mexican Angelino experiencing this) which often landed in Long Beach AND the crack- and gang- heavy nadir of South LA-area Black communities.

Which is to say, in actual historical precedent that informs cultural sentiment, dense housing in California (let’s talk *Oakland*) consistently means “the white average-Joe neighborhood becomes overrun with inscrutable, addiction-riven, gang-murderous Others”

And the whole environmental stuff – there’s a clear line from John Muir and the Sierra Club through Paul Erlich and The Population Bomb to the Bay Area types who want to cap tech jobs or the people who worry about water (or road!) use coming from new development that the way to keep properly stewarding the land without exhausting finite resources was to limit population.

You can work racial or wevs angles too, a lot of the West Coast issues with natives and Chinese workers came from the way that the coast’s founding culture really came from a “Free Soil” philosophy, common among smallholders and “mechanics” in the (then-“West”), one of the two strains that went into the Republican anti-slavery stance along Boston moralism (New York, as the major port city of an international economy powered by cotton, was fairly pro-Confederate), that this was supposed to be a country to enable white men’s ability to establish self-sufficient petty dynasties of their own, and that indulging all this nonwhite work – creating a national economy oriented around slave-produced agricultural exports rather than white artisan industrial development, Pacific landowners recruiting natives or Chinese in a labor shortage rather than letting white wages rise so the workers could establish their pioneer fortunes – were, fundamentally, taking their jerbs.

And the pastoralism! This was the pleasant climate where the ranch house really blew up, integrating the outdoors and living area. Backyards – and home gardens – were key.

(In a LOT of ways Portland as I came to it at the dawn of the 2010s suddenly reminded me of things I had read about midcentury LA far closer than the one I saw in the 2000s)

Pete Seeger in 1963, “little boxes made of ticky tacky”, Joni Mitchell in 1970, “paved paradise and put up a parking lot”, these were laments for greenfield development coming before the activist-driven 1970s downzonings that saw that greenfield development was the ONLY way for California to add housing.

Tagged: the california ideology same as it ever was amhist history