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In retrospect Garbage took the role of being a band for adolescents so seriously and I respect them so much for it

kontextmaschine:

In retrospect Garbage took the role of being a band for adolescents so seriously and I respect them so much for it

I saw Garbage at the Electric Factory in Philly on the Version 2.0 tour. Shirley was in a sling from a breast biopsy (on tour!) and she was still a fucking ball of energy.

In contrast I remember The Cranberries canceling, and then learning they actually cancel a lot, and then Dolores O'Riordan died unexpectedly the other year and I noticed no one really brought up how she was a ‘90s rock star who sang about heroin and then missed a lot of shows for health reasons

Tagged: garbage dolores o'riordan the cranberries

In retrospect Garbage took the role of being a band for adolescents so seriously and I respect them so much for it

In retrospect Garbage took the role of being a band for adolescents so seriously and I respect them so much for it

Tagged: garbage shirley manson butch vig

Occasional reminder that the long, skilled, and impressive process of forging a katana did not yield a super-weapon, it mostly...

Occasional reminder that the long, skilled, and impressive process of forging a katana did not yield a super-weapon, it mostly compensated for the extremely low quality iron sand and charcoal inputs.

Tagged: rekishi

[Signoff,]

kontextmaschine:

what’s the signoff to letters, where you’re like

[Signoff,]

Signature

Printed Name

anyway my dad used “Very Truly Yours”, which I appreciate as both invoking and undercutting with absurdity the ritual form, I’ve been decreasingly ironically using a simple “Yours”

My elementary school in a “favored quarter” suburban district that went from rural to commuter professional when I was in school spent just an absurd share of instructional time teaching us how to write letters.

Now that I think of it this was the plurality share of our Japanese writing classes too, because people born in the ‘80s still grew up under educational apparatuses designed to prepare us to write letters.

[Signoff,]

what’s the signoff to letters, where you’re like

[Signoff,]

Signature

Printed Name

anyway my dad used “Very Truly Yours”, which I appreciate as both invoking and undercutting with absurdity the ritual form, I’ve been decreasingly ironically using a simple “Yours”

Tagged: very truly yours

“men kill themselves more than women 😢😔” men kill everyone more than women

tactfulsaboteur:

deadbeatmotherr:

“men kill themselves more than women 😢😔”

men kill everyone more than women

CAMPEÃO DO MUNDO 😎💯🔥🤣 ☝🏻

Tagged: gender

I have opened up slashes on the pads of most of my right fingers by grabbing things wrong while my skin is suddenly tight in a...

I have opened up slashes on the pads of most of my right fingers by grabbing things wrong while my skin is suddenly tight in a way that might be related to how the testosterone is supercharging my muscle growth

Tagged: kontextmaschine gets built

Also "Taylor Swift was the first female country artist to sing about BPD" is a bad take. I mean, "Taylor Swift was the first...

Also “Taylor Swift was the first female country artist to sing about BPD” is a bad take. I mean,

“Taylor Swift was the first female country artist to acknowledge BPD” also a bad take! She didn’t! She’s been doing it all in subtext, it’s just the 21st century and she’s better as a lyricist!

Tagged: taylor swift borderline personality disorder supergenius shapeshifter taylor swift that lip sync does not work AT ALL

"Oh Taylor Swift is woke bowdlerizing Speak Now by replacing the 'she's better known for the things that she does on the...

“Oh Taylor Swift is woke bowdlerizing Speak Now by replacing the ‘she’s better known for the things that she does on the mattress’ line about Camilla Belle”

  1. Okay yes but who is Camilla Belle
  2. I kind of expected the Taylor’s Version lyric controversy to be about whether she still tells people he’s gay on Picture to Burn, but she hasn’t got to the self-titled album yet.

Tagged: taylor swift supergenius shapeshifter taylor swift speak now taylor’s version

Got new whiskey glasses cause I felt I should have ones with the classic textured glass and I realized that not only does that...

Got new whiskey glasses cause I felt I should have ones with the classic textured glass

and I realized that not only does that stuff make it harder to fumble and drop when you’re drunk but the height of the various details is a guide to how far to fill it for things (those two lower bands are measures of one and two fingers, and the upper stippling represents how far to fill with ice and then pour it on the rocks)

So one take-away from the personality change maybe making me unautistic is that the antonym of "ask culture" isn't guess...

kontextmaschine:

kontextmaschine:

So one take-away from the personality change maybe making me unautistic is that the antonym of “ask culture” isn’t guess culture, they’re not (now I’m not) guessing, there really is some sort of interpersonal signal they’re (we’re) picking up.

But it’s not like an information-carrying signal, or at least one that gets delivered to the consciousness, it’s not like as if where before I’d be like “oh I want to make a romantic move but I don’t know the right moment” I pay attention to the signal and it tells me what the right moment is and so I can decide to do it then.

What it is is that being attuned to this signal, I will make that move at some point that happens to be the ideal moment, without ever having specifically considered and decided on that.

I dunno, maybe this is what instinct is? Whereas previously I had thought of it in terms of information (like “this is the moment”) arriving without any obvious source that would then serve as an input to the same conscious decisionmaking process?

Like I have no idea what the mechanism is here. Is it just checking for the most ideal moment I’m likely to get, or the first time I cross some threshold such as to expect it be well-received? Can I fake it into false starts with local maxima? To be determined.

Suddenly struck by what an autistic way of thought this investigation into not being autistic is proceeding under

Tagged: autism allism

Hey second-language English speakers, what did you think of "vice versa"? That's a weird one-off from our long tradition of of...

Hey second-language English speakers, what did you think of “vice versa”? That’s a weird one-off from our long tradition of of “being cutesy and adopting something from Latin long after anyone spoke Latin”

Tagged: eigo

Okay, today I relied more heavily on my left hand to push the short pitching shovel from choked up by the head while the right...

Okay, today I relied more heavily on my left hand to push the short pitching shovel from choked up by the head while the right pulled from the handle (& vice versa), that avoided aggravating my recent issues and even if it started to aggravate the left shoulder it was in an at-the-time dull “hey, that’s enough” way that then faded with rest rather than fire two hours after for days.

Got a yard since last time when I said as few as 6 left and yeah, as few as 5 left now. At least before leaving it to settle & be rained on for a season, after which it’ll need at least 2.5 more.

Between the better motion and experience on where to unload and how to shift the load around as the bed empties, much faster today, but one yard + var. sidequests still took up a full day of work (and further efficiency will likely keep pace with earlier sunsets), so I’ll probably only get 1.5s on Saturdays when I won’t be active before the yard closes noon Sunday.

Looking good!

Tagged: groundskeeping

The landscapers who ghosted me at least got me in their system enough to text me a survey that's thematically consistent

The landscapers who ghosted me at least got me in their system enough to text me a survey

that’s thematically consistent

It's fortunate that trans "egg" discourse has died down, because going around seeing who can be "transed" (a verb) is not really...

iteratedextras:

rametarin:

siryouarebeingmocked:

lordascapelion:

mitigatedchaos:

It’s fortunate that trans “egg” discourse has died down, because going around seeing who can be “transed” (a verb) is not really the appropriate approach.

It looks really suspicious perceived by outsiders and downright depraved if you already are opposed to or skeptical of the movement.

Which explains precisely why it’s almost exclusively used within very insular trans communities, AFAIK.

‘Eggers’ are just to transgendered people, community and discourse what, ‘political lesbians’ are to the feminist and LGBT discourse.

The parallels are pretty stark. Political lesbians adopted Marxism and applied it to biological sex and human sexuality, determined that there could be no ethical sex under patriarchy the same as there could be no ethical consumption under capitalism, so all binary sexed sexual relations were tantamount to exploitation- thus, no sex with a man could be anything but rape.

Eggers take a similar extremist view, but for gender. They deny the biological underpinnings as any social constructionist does and primary and secondary sexual characteristics to them are just aesthetics to change for the arbitrary uniform of gender. Eggers believe, much like the political lesbians did, that you could be “convinced” to become trans (in the case of political lesbians, will yourself to be gay.)

The political lesbians soon realized, no, you can’t force yourself to be gay. There are hard wired neurological mechanisms behind sexuality, gay or straight. At best you could hurt yourself until you’re better able to tolerate sex, and maybe perform that way for some sort of degredation thrill, but it’s not the same thing as actually being sexually attracted to what you’re having sex with. A lot of drug abusers experience the same thing, a lot of sex workers too. It’s not the same thing as sexual orientation when you just burn out your ability to process feelings in order to perform sex like it’s an act on stage.

And similarly with ‘egg’ discourse among transgendered people. ‘Eggs’, like political lesbians, believe transgenderedness is cultural and can be imposed on someone. That you can just adopt or choose to become that way. They treat, “queerness” like a religion or a hobby. And define that as being trans. It’s actally a very transphobic view of how it works, because it’s like adopting the idea to be trans is to be a pervert, therefore all perverts are trans and that’s normal.

I don’t trust people that unironically use expressions like, ‘an uncracked egg,’ to refer to people they suspect could be brought into their culture. Because they’re just like the people that thought, for better or worse, being gay was something you could spread or corrupt people into being through social and psychological manipulation, grooming and cultivation. They’re effectively promising to lie to someone about what gender is and how they identify with it and give them a psychological complex about gender and their own relation to it, for… a sexual thrill. And what they see as “progressivism.” They’re no different from the hypervigilant conservative parents trying to deny their child, “LGBT queerness” in cultural influences, in the hopes they’ll grow up straight and cis.

What do you make of the @kontextmaschine Covid-induced bisexuality arc?

Okay, @rametarin, let me fill you in:

I, a bloke with cock & balls, actually identified as a girl in adolescence in the ‘90s (being aware of the previous Renee Richards/Wendy Carlos Williams '70s Transgender Moment).

I eventually stopped, which I explained (to myself, others if asked) in terms that going through a gender transition (in like 1998) wouldn’t bring me anything like the experiences of my female classmates, or even a particularly good life at all.

If there had been anything like the environment of even the early 2010s, maybe I wouldn’t have. (When people said people transitioning were getting another chance at adolescence, I think they were underweighting the “you find an online community around your one subculture and it becomes your whole world” angle.)

So I’d say “egg cracked, it’s a cock”.

Oh, also, I wanted to be bisexual, tried “bihacking” myself, but discovered I was in fact Kinsey 0 pure heterosexual. Because I experimented with boys, and the results were “no”.

So forward to my late 30s, Covid happens, I caught it before vaccines existed, it goes “Long” in my brain and gives me a totally new personality. That is bisexual. (Which is probably the weirdest single part but well below 50% of the total weirdness)

And what that is, is “boy” has been added alongside “girl” on the list of “genders I can see value in”. Which doesn’t just matter for sexual stuff, it means I am just psyched to be a boy, in what I am pretty sure is “gender euphoria”. Earlier today I picked up a load of topsoil in my pickup truck and spread it in my yard by straining (and building!) the muscles of my shirtless, powerful male body and it was glorious in ways that have nothing to do with progression towards orgasm.

Which leads me to suspect that both the “transbian” AND fujoshi-turned-trans-man phenomena are similarly a matter of Kinsey 0s who can only see value in the opposite of their ah, assigned-at-birth gender wanting to value their selves.

Tagged: gender gender euphoria kinsey scale

So I guess my take-away from ::gestures:: all this is that after I graduated college I was not in fact a final-stage imago, I...

So I guess my take-away from ::gestures:: all this is that after I graduated college I was not in fact a final-stage imago, I had to moult through several instars before, mediated by Covid, I pupated.

Tagged: personality change kontextmaschine loses weight kontextmaschine gets built kontextmaschine

Saw for the first time in years a girl who I had indirectly made clear I'd be interested in but she'd indirectly made clear she...

Saw for the first time in years a girl who I had indirectly made clear I’d be interested in but she’d indirectly made clear she wouldn’t, and she mentioned that I was looking good while she’s clearly not even in her early 30s anymore, so that was nice.

Tagged: kontextmaschine loses weight kontextmaschine gets built 2023

Going back to the 1970s, hearing a gay guy ask "What do they matter, who's Christian these days anyway? We've got hot anonymous...

Going back to the 1970s, hearing a gay guy ask “What do they matter, who’s Christian these days anyway? We’ve got hot anonymous sex with strangers!” and wincing

Tagged: 70s70s70s vibe shift

The "a Black sheriff?!" conceit of Blazing Saddles (1974) was really about how race interacted with the sort of postwar American...

The “a Black sheriff?!” conceit of Blazing Saddles (1974) was really about how race interacted with the sort of postwar American identity mythologized in cowboy movies, the actual Western frontier was the most likely place in American history to find a Black man in a respected position of authority over whites until the post-Vietnam military.

Tagged: afamhist amhist race blazing saddles