like I knew the FTX crypto exchange was a ponzi scheme but finding out it was run by a polycule of racist Harry Potter tumblr nerds was a real gut punch ngl
I don’t give a shit about celebrity drama but I can’t claim it’s because I’m a more elevated person because I have exactly the same neurotic media-spectator mentality toward these organizational debacles. I’m so invested in my organizational debacle blorbos you guys
When the FTX crash hits and your first thought is “I can’t wait for the Jonah Hill biopic its gonna be fire”
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Finnish soldier gets separated from the rest of his unit but he’s the only one carrying the emergency amphetamines for the unit, takes too many and goes on a one man rampage for like 2 weeks straight giving the opposing Soviet soldiers nightmares for decades. Oh and he did it all on skis.
Did he survive?
Yes, during his methed up 2-3 week rampage he got injured by a land mine, travelled 400km on skis, and only ate pine buds and a Siberian Jay that he caught which he ate raw. When he made it back to Finnish lines he was taken to a hospital where it was found his heart rate was nearly 200 beats per minute and his weight had dropped to 43kg (94.7lbs).
His name was Aimo Koivunen if you want to look him up
Those are the eyes of a man who has seen god and laughed
Those are the eyes of a man who saw satan and asked for his number
those are the eyes of
a man who saw satan and
asked for his number ^Haiku^bot^9. I detect haikus with 5-7-5 format. Sometimes I make mistakes.
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Those are the eyes of a man who saw satan and asked for his number
Also, when I talk about Taylor Swift as Empress of America I don’t mean “mommy is so great, we should recognize her as higher than a queen!”, I mean that if it breaks up into independent kingdoms she is the only one I can picture with the stature to claim the role of balancing them and holding them together in some understanding of America
Hm, today’s echo effect is lateral instability while walking, like that had made me have to lean on the walls going down the hall, but the arch-foot walking’s developed enough I mostly buffer it all at the ankles
So something I have realized is Roissy/PUA-style “game” does not work as a normative guide to how you, a man who does not get pussy, can get pussy, but it is a 100% accurate descriptive account of how the guys who do get pussy get pussy, and anxiety is the mediating factor
Also “anxiety” is not something caused by the situations you’re in that conscious changes in will change but rather a permanent variable, per-person and biochemical, like “depression”
epiphenomenalism except the mind is real and getting physical is the epiphenomenon
wasn’t it, like, entirely about training yourself to not feel anxiety about talking to women? Ancient third-hand knowledge informs me that they had a whole Thing about it, “your first thousand rejections don’t count”
Expecting someone with an anxiety disorder to voluntarily go through a thousand rejections is not practical, the anxiety is what makes the weight of a single rejection crushing.
People with anxiety disorders aren’t the only people who experience anxiety, though.
the point was that a whole lot of people experience anxiety about this, and shouldn’t, because the horrible consequences they’re imagining mostly aren’t going to happen and trying it a few times will show them that.
Hm. Well, I suppose the old personality had an anxiety disorder then, it was not something situations caused, it was something I had that affected my experience of situations. And now the new personality is apparently incapable of anxiety, so the concept of it as a contingent thing is forever foreign.
One thing deeply buried in the American philosophy of the last, say… 40 years or so is that one doesn’t learn things, one is simply already predisposed to be good or bad at them, and this comes out equally in all possible situations, so therefore there’s not much sense in attempting to change, and one can neither teach nor learn.
It’s weird how often I talk to people and ask, “Have you ever had a situation where you were trying something, and getting nowhere, and you just got more and more frustrated and then someone said, ‘have you tried doing it this way’ and suddenly it clicked and you started getting a lot better at it” and they react as though I had asked, “Have you ever had tea with a purple unicorn on the moon?”
No, now I think about it, not just American, some significant portion of the English-speaking world has internalized this position as the obvious one for reasons I don’t really understand.
You can’t really ask because this “People don’t change, water just finds its level” philosophy is understood as self-evident on such a deep level that people have trouble even understanding what an alternative could be, let alone articulate their reasons for believing it.
This is really verging on “have you tried not being depressed?” ::stage whisper:: “of course they haven’t, lazy self-obsessed gits” territory here, and my hackles are raising.
I get frustrated because I ask, “What could I be doing differently to make friends more easily or feel less nervous about women” and people have a bear of a time answering.
There’s a thing if you’re autistic where people oscilate rapidly between telling you that there is no right answer, and asking why you aren’t getting the right answer.
“What should I wear?”
“Oh, nobody cares, you know, just wear whatever.”
Which is then followed by,
“You dress so unusually. I don’t know, maybe you don’t want to just be known as the guy who dresses like that all the time.”
Which is then, obviously, followed by
“Well then, what should I wear?”
“Oh, there’s no single right answer”
Et cetera et cetera et cetera.
It’s very frustrating, this rapid oscillation between “There’s no correct answer to shoot for” and “Why didn’t you get the correct answer?”
People almost certainly have different baseline anxieties but anxiety is lessened by familiarity and practice; some people won’t be anxious about anything much; some people will start out anxious about some things and eventually become used to them with practice, and some will stay anxious about certain things even with frequent exposure.
Sports training almost certainly won’t make me Michael Jordan but it can probably make me better at Basketball then I was when I started.
Hm okay the thing is my personality change experience has left me with the sense anxiety:nervousness::depression:sadness, like anxiety was no more about what you have to be nervous about than depression was about what you had to be sad about, it was just a condition where you were very sensitive and disruptable by any… nonalignment, or maybe conflict unresolved.
So I could only bear to expose myself for possible rejection if I had covered all possible outcomes, which is to say was sure there couldn’t be a rejection, which was to say I didn’t expose myself, and I’m so good at wittily turning possible threats away because those were the skills I developed in lieu
bizarro world in which “imagine if people had favorite serial killers the way they have favorite fruits or boy band singers” was an absurd concept
remember that time when Netflix made a documentary about Ted Bundy and people were like “this guy is HOT. wait, he’s a republican, nevermind” and i made a shitpost along the lines of “friendship ended with republican ted bundy. now democrat john wayne gacy is my best friend” and someone reblogged it with “this but ironically”. that sure was a thing that happened.
When I would look up from whatever I was reading in the family room to see whatever sports my dad had on in the ‘90s, I remember it as being a remarkable NBA game if one team crossed 100
It’s funny how by renaming Aunt Jemima brands “Pearl Milling Company” they’re still invoking prewar tradition, just now as “products of distinct business operations” rather than “family servants”.
(It’s part of PepsiCo. Most American packaged food is either PepsiCo or RJR Nabisco, just like most consumer chemicals like floor cleaner or shampoo are either Unilever or Procter & Gamble)
