As I lose weight every stage I reach I was once at on the way up. Well, in a little I’ll be before puberty, that’ll throw me. Only that was more gradual, so that every month I could feel essentially the same as last month where now I can run my hands over my body and between the feel of my body under my hand and the feel of my hand through my body it feels noticeably different not only day to day but from morning to night to next morning.
bruh, are you dying or something?
I have some Long Covid thing that disrupts my anaerobic generation of energy from blood sugar. Creatine is what enables anaerobic generation from fat stores, and I find by taking supplements (beyond the body’s natural production) to boost anaerobic I can get through the day at normal energy levels, but the cost is I’m burning fat rapidly.
This started with my second Covid case; onset of the issues was so sudden I went from normal to as if weighted by at least a 100lb weighted blanket in 30 mins, I ended up having to take 8 scoops of creatine a day to enable enough energy to return to normal, which gradually sloped off over months.
This is currently an “echo” brought on by my most recent case, I started with 3 scoops/day and requirements are decreasing, but on track for the same total duration as before.
I am a little concerned (which is intellectual, I don’t do visceral worry anymore) if this keeps recurring whether I’ll have enough in the tank to keep doing this: I’m still visibly overweight, but if this episode tapered on the same schedule as the first, then I immediately had another one that matched the second, I think I would then be at around “normal” weight.
If it happened immediately again I could probably tank it and come out marathoner-emaciated, but at that point I don’t think I could further repeat.
So, as is I’m still overweight but I’m starting to eat a more indulgent diet – sure, whole milk, throw another stick of butter in the sauce, I’ll lose weight anyway.
Of course who knows if it repeats again, or if further cases are even milder, maybe increasing anaerobic demands within the limits of natural creatine levels. I wouldn’t be shocked if that sort of thing (you were sick with something petty last October, and in consequence you now weigh a pound less than you would otherwise) was within the range of what the previously circulating human coronaviruses have been doing all along
Jeez. I assume you’ve talked to a doctor about this?
Yeah, you would.
I dunno, man, this sound potentially pretty deadly and I think that if you have any money for it at all you should definitely get some sort of professional medical advice.
On the one hand yes, on the other hand that sounds like exactly the type of thing that people spend decades having doctors blow them off as just mentally ill or obese and the system is just uninterested in caring for so IDK if I’d blame anyone for not bothering.
Yeah when people are all You Should See A Doctor they often seem drawing from the mythology of the 20th century Age of Medical Heroism, like they’re Medical Detectives or Medical Wizards even; I tend to see them as Medical Bureaucrats, the basic reward I’d expect for jumping all the hoops is to meet a specialist who insists it’s something it loosely pattern-matches to (pattern-rhymes, maybe), sends me for a bunch of tests on that premise, which involves wrassling with insurance (well, it’s all integrated in-house at Kaiser, why I chose them), they come back negative, she sends me on more tests for her more unlikely backup hypothesis, they come back negative, finally I convince her to look into what I thought it was, she figures out what tests would be appropriate, they come back positive…
And months and dollars and bothers later, all I’ve done is establish to her scientific satisfaction that it was what I said it was from jump, but this does not constitute or even really point to any treatment
I mean part of it at least if further episodes don’t get worse I have the option to suck it up, if I hadn’t taken any creatine this time I don’t think I would’ve been getting any yard work done the last few months, and even grocery shopping would be a bother, but I’d manage; I wonder even if this hadn’t been showing up for me to power through with the first case, as the “weight/gravity multiplier”, before I thought to use creatine.
I mean like, I am progressing towards death, but at the same 1 day per day rate we all always are.
As I lose weight every stage I reach I was once at on the way up. Well, in a little I’ll be before puberty, that’ll throw me. Only that was more gradual, so that every month I could feel essentially the same as last month where now I can run my hands over my body and between the feel of my body under my hand and the feel of my hand through my body it feels noticeably different not only day to day but from morning to night to next morning.
bruh, are you dying or something?
I have some Long Covid thing that disrupts my anaerobic generation of energy from blood sugar. Creatine is what enables anaerobic generation from fat stores, and I find by taking supplements (beyond the body’s natural production) to boost anaerobic I can get through the day at normal energy levels, but the cost is I’m burning fat rapidly.
This started with my second Covid case; onset of the issues was so sudden I went from normal to as if weighted by at least a 100lb weighted blanket in 30 mins, I ended up having to take 8 scoops of creatine a day to enable enough energy to return to normal, which gradually sloped off over months.
This is currently an “echo” brought on by my most recent case, I started with 3 scoops/day and requirements are decreasing, but on track for the same total duration as before.
I am a little concerned (which is intellectual, I don’t do visceral worry anymore) if this keeps recurring whether I’ll have enough in the tank to keep doing this: I’m still visibly overweight, but if this episode tapered on the same schedule as the first, then I immediately had another one that matched the second, I think I would then be at around “normal” weight.
If it happened immediately again I could probably tank it and come out marathoner-emaciated, but at that point I don’t think I could further repeat.
So, as is I’m still overweight but I’m starting to eat a more indulgent diet – sure, whole milk, throw another stick of butter in the sauce, I’ll lose weight anyway.
Of course who knows if it repeats again, or if further cases are even milder, maybe increasing anaerobic demands within the limits of natural creatine levels. I wouldn’t be shocked if that sort of thing (you were sick with something petty last October, and in consequence you now weigh a pound less than you would otherwise) was within the range of what the previously circulating human coronaviruses have been doing all along
Jeez. I assume you’ve talked to a doctor about this?
Yeah, you would.
I dunno, man, this sound potentially pretty deadly and I think that if you have any money for it at all you should definitely get some sort of professional medical advice.
On the one hand yes, on the other hand that sounds like exactly the type of thing that people spend decades having doctors blow them off as just mentally ill or obese and the system is just uninterested in caring for so IDK if I’d blame anyone for not bothering.
Yeah when people are all You Should See A Doctor they often seem drawing from the mythology of the 20th century Age of Medical Heroism, like they’re Medical Detectives or Medical Wizards even; I tend to see them as Medical Bureaucrats, the basic reward I’d expect for jumping all the hoops is to meet a specialist who insists it’s something it loosely pattern-matches to (pattern-rhymes, maybe), sends me for a bunch of tests on that premise, which involves wrassling with insurance (well, it’s all integrated in-house at Kaiser, why I chose them), they come back negative, she sends me on more tests for her more unlikely backup hypothesis, they come back negative, finally I convince her to look into what I thought it was, she figures out what tests would be appropriate, they come back positive…
And months and dollars and bothers later, all I’ve done is establish to her scientific satisfaction that it was what I said it was from jump, but this does not constitute or even really point to any treatment
I mean part of it at least if further episodes don’t get worse I have the option to suck it up, if I hadn’t taken any creatine this time I don’t think I would’ve been getting any yard work done the last few months, and even grocery shopping would be a bother, but I’d manage; I wonder even if this hadn’t been showing up for me to power through with the first case, as the “weight/gravity multiplier”, before I thought to use creatine.
Content note for non specific discussion of harm to a child, because this is about THAT story after all.
Shortly after Le Guin’s death, I read (perhaps re-read - maybe I read it in 9th grade like most people) ‘The Ones Who Walk Away from Omelas’. I feel like this is a story that most people 'know what it is about.’ Le Guin herself talked about how teachers used it to spark class discussions about utilitarianism, moral conundrums and individual rights versus the interests of the community.
We know the set up. Utopian city, whose prosperity depends upon the neglect and torture of one child (somehow). Everyone knows about the child. People go and see the child, most people accept the child’s existence, but some walk away from the city, never to return, and become the title characters.
But do we really know what this story is about? We could take the story as an allegory for how our prosperity depends upon exploitation, and 'the ones who walk away’ as stand-ins for brave dissenters. However I think that sells Omelas short. Our own nation is not a Utopia - we have not attained the perfection of happiness and harmony that Omelas has. Indeed, our nation has a lot of children treated just as badly for no reason at all - at least Omelas gets a Utopia out of it, supposedly. I say this not to defend LeGuin’s city on speech but to deflate the middle school self righteousness with which we applaud the title 'ones who walk away’ without asking ourselves about our own world and our place for n upholding it’s oppressions, which is typical of the way many dystopias are discussed.
But this reading actually ignores how the story unfolds. It is not a story, really. It has no plot - it is a description of the city. But not a straightforward description. The story would be best described as a negotiation, between the reader and the narrator. The narrator sets out a perfect city, and then asks the reader if they will accept it. And time and again, the narrator concedes that the reader does not accept it. The reader cannot accept happiness, contentment and peace. Until the narrator introduces the torture of a child. And then the reader accepts it. And we might object that Le Guin’s narrator is putting words in our mouth but we must acknowledge that this story is not famous because of the beautifully but simply rendered depictions of happiness above-ground in Omelas. It is famous because of the tortured child.
The people of Omelas do not put the child in the closet. The reader does. The people of Omelas do not trade a child for the good of the people, the reader does. And why? Because the reader cannot imagine things another way. Because the reader would dismiss a Utopia as fantasy unless it came at some terrible price, and then it becomes a profound moral problem. We can make this a literary commentary on Utopian and dystopian fiction, and God knows we have too much of the latter. How our sensibilities confuse pain and sometimes even cruelty for profundity, and how our imaginations are limited. But we can take this beyond literature. How do our limited imaginations constrain our ability to create a better world? How do they make us complicit in exploitation and abuse by making us accept them and dismiss better alternatives?
Le Guin was the greatest in no small part because she was always challenging us to see different possibilities for how we could live and who we could be. I think Omelas is a very stark lesson in the perils of a limited imagination.
(As another note, The negotiated framing is very similar to Plato’s Republic, which is often read as the original Utopia and yet is another example of how readers often disregard narrative frames to our detriment.)
As I lose weight every stage I reach I was once at on the way up. Well, in a little I’ll be before puberty, that’ll throw me. Only that was more gradual, so that every month I could feel essentially the same as last month where now I can run my hands over my body and between the feel of my body under my hand and the feel of my hand through my body it feels noticeably different not only day to day but from morning to night to next morning.
bruh, are you dying or something?
I have some Long Covid thing that disrupts my anaerobic generation of energy from blood sugar. Creatine is what enables anaerobic generation from fat stores, and I find by taking supplements (beyond the body’s natural production) to boost anaerobic I can get through the day at normal energy levels, but the cost is I’m burning fat rapidly.
This started with my second Covid case; onset of the issues was so sudden I went from normal to as if weighted by at least a 100lb weighted blanket in 30 mins, I ended up having to take 8 scoops of creatine a day to enable enough energy to return to normal, which gradually sloped off over months.
This is currently an “echo” brought on by my most recent case, I started with 3 scoops/day and requirements are decreasing, but on track for the same total duration as before.
I am a little concerned (which is intellectual, I don’t do visceral worry anymore) if this keeps recurring whether I’ll have enough in the tank to keep doing this: I’m still visibly overweight, but if this episode tapered on the same schedule as the first, then I immediately had another one that matched the second, I think I would then be at around “normal” weight.
If it happened immediately again I could probably tank it and come out marathoner-emaciated, but at that point I don’t think I could further repeat.
So, as is I’m still overweight but I’m starting to eat a more indulgent diet – sure, whole milk, throw another stick of butter in the sauce, I’ll lose weight anyway.
Of course who knows if it repeats again, or if further cases are even milder, maybe increasing anaerobic demands within the limits of natural creatine levels. I wouldn’t be shocked if that sort of thing (you were sick with something petty last October, and in consequence you now weigh a pound less than you would otherwise) was within the range of what the previously circulating human coronaviruses have been doing all along
Jeez. I assume you’ve talked to a doctor about this?
Yeah, you would.
I dunno, man, this sound potentially pretty deadly and I think that if you have any money for it at all you should definitely get some sort of professional medical advice.
On the one hand yes, on the other hand that sounds like exactly the type of thing that people spend decades having doctors blow them off as just mentally ill or obese and the system is just uninterested in caring for so IDK if I’d blame anyone for not bothering.
Yeah when people are all You Should See A Doctor they often seem drawing from the mythology of the 20th century Age of Medical Heroism, like they’re Medical Detectives or Medical Wizards even; I tend to see them as Medical Bureaucrats, the basic reward I’d expect for jumping all the hoops is to meet a specialist who insists it’s something it loosely pattern-matches to (pattern-rhymes, maybe), sends me for a bunch of tests on that premise, which involves wrassling with insurance (well, it’s all integrated in-house at Kaiser, why I chose them), they come back negative, she sends me on more tests for her more unlikely backup hypothesis, they come back negative, finally I convince her to look into what I thought it was, she figures out what tests would be appropriate, they come back positive…
And months and dollars and bothers later, all I’ve done is establish to her scientific satisfaction that it was what I said it was from jump, but this does not constitute or even really point to any treatment
As I lose weight every stage I reach I was once at on the way up. Well, in a little I’ll be before puberty, that’ll throw me. Only that was more gradual, so that every month I could feel essentially the same as last month where now I can run my hands over my body and between the feel of my body under my hand and the feel of my hand through my body it feels noticeably different not only day to day but from morning to night to next morning.
bruh, are you dying or something?
I have some Long Covid thing that disrupts my anaerobic generation of energy from blood sugar. Creatine is what enables anaerobic generation from fat stores, and I find by taking supplements (beyond the body’s natural production) to boost anaerobic I can get through the day at normal energy levels, but the cost is I’m burning fat rapidly.
This started with my second Covid case; onset of the issues was so sudden I went from normal to as if weighted by at least a 100lb weighted blanket in 30 mins, I ended up having to take 8 scoops of creatine a day to enable enough energy to return to normal, which gradually sloped off over months.
This is currently an “echo” brought on by my most recent case, I started with 3 scoops/day and requirements are decreasing, but on track for the same total duration as before.
I am a little concerned (which is intellectual, I don’t do visceral worry anymore) if this keeps recurring whether I’ll have enough in the tank to keep doing this: I’m still visibly overweight, but if this episode tapered on the same schedule as the first, then I immediately had another one that matched the second, I think I would then be at around “normal” weight.
If it happened immediately again I could probably tank it and come out marathoner-emaciated, but at that point I don’t think I could further repeat.
So, as is I’m still overweight but I’m starting to eat a more indulgent diet – sure, whole milk, throw another stick of butter in the sauce, I’ll lose weight anyway.
Of course who knows if it repeats again, or if further cases are even milder, maybe increasing anaerobic demands within the limits of natural creatine levels. I wouldn’t be shocked if that sort of thing (you were sick with something petty last October, and in consequence you now weigh a pound less than you would otherwise) was within the range of what the previously circulating human coronaviruses have been doing all along
Jeez. I assume you’ve talked to a doctor about this?
Yeah, you would.
I dunno, man, this sound potentially pretty deadly and I think that if you have any money for it at all you should definitely get some sort of professional medical advice.
Yeah, once I get Darwin’s front end fixed up I gotta do Kaiser onboarding
As I lose weight every stage I reach I was once at on the way up. Well, in a little I’ll be before puberty, that’ll throw me. Only that was more gradual, so that every month I could feel essentially the same as last month where now I can run my hands over my body and between the feel of my body under my hand and the feel of my hand through my body it feels noticeably different not only day to day but from morning to night to next morning.
bruh, are you dying or something?
I have some Long Covid thing that disrupts my anaerobic generation of energy from blood sugar. Creatine is what enables anaerobic generation from fat stores, and I find by taking supplements (beyond the body’s natural production) to boost anaerobic I can get through the day at normal energy levels, but the cost is I’m burning fat rapidly.
This started with my second Covid case; onset of the issues was so sudden I went from normal to as if weighted by at least a 100lb weighted blanket in 30 mins, I ended up having to take 8 scoops of creatine a day to enable enough energy to return to normal, which gradually sloped off over months.
This is currently an “echo” brought on by my most recent case, I started with 3 scoops/day and requirements are decreasing, but on track for the same total duration as before.
I am a little concerned (which is intellectual, I don’t do visceral worry anymore) if this keeps recurring whether I’ll have enough in the tank to keep doing this: I’m still visibly overweight, but if this episode tapered on the same schedule as the first, then I immediately had another one that matched the second, I think I would then be at around “normal” weight.
If it happened immediately again I could probably tank it and come out marathoner-emaciated, but at that point I don’t think I could further repeat.
So, as is I’m still overweight but I’m starting to eat a more indulgent diet – sure, whole milk, throw another stick of butter in the sauce, I’ll lose weight anyway.
Of course who knows if it repeats again, or if further cases are even milder, maybe increasing anaerobic demands within the limits of natural creatine levels. I wouldn’t be shocked if that sort of thing (you were sick with something petty last October, and in consequence you now weigh a pound less than you would otherwise) was within the range of what the previously circulating human coronaviruses have been doing all along
Jeez. I assume you’ve talked to a doctor about this?
As I lose weight every stage I reach I was once at on the way up. Well, in a little I’ll be before puberty, that’ll throw me. Only that was more gradual, so that every month I could feel essentially the same as last month where now I can run my hands over my body and between the feel of my body under my hand and the feel of my hand through my body it feels noticeably different not only day to day but from morning to night to next morning.
bruh, are you dying or something?
I have some Long Covid thing that disrupts my anaerobic generation of energy from blood sugar. Creatine is what enables anaerobic generation from fat stores, and I find by taking supplements (beyond the body’s natural production) to boost anaerobic I can get through the day at normal energy levels, but the cost is I’m burning fat rapidly.
This started with my second Covid case; onset of the issues was so sudden I went from normal to as if weighted by at least a 100lb weighted blanket in 30 mins, I ended up having to take 8 scoops of creatine a day to enable enough energy to return to normal, which gradually sloped off over months.
This is currently an “echo” brought on by my most recent case, I started with 3 scoops/day and requirements are decreasing, but on track for the same total duration as before.
I am a little concerned (which is intellectual, I don’t do visceral worry anymore) if this keeps recurring whether I’ll have enough in the tank to keep doing this: I’m still visibly overweight, but if this episode tapered on the same schedule as the first, then I immediately had another one that matched the second, I think I would then be at around “normal” weight.
If it happened immediately again I could probably tank it and come out marathoner-emaciated, but at that point I don’t think I could further repeat.
So, as is I’m still overweight but I’m starting to eat a more indulgent diet – sure, whole milk, throw another stick of butter in the sauce, I’ll lose weight anyway.
Of course who knows if it repeats again, or if further cases are even milder, maybe increasing anaerobic demands within the limits of natural creatine levels. I wouldn’t be shocked if that sort of thing (you were sick with something petty last October, and in consequence you now weigh a pound less than you would otherwise) was within the range of what the previously circulating human coronaviruses have been doing all along
As I lose weight every stage I reach I was once at on the way up. Well, in a little I’ll be before puberty, that’ll throw me. Only that was more gradual, so that every month I could feel essentially the same as last month where now I can run my hands over my body and between the feel of my body under my hand and the feel of my hand through my body it feels noticeably different not only day to day but from morning to night to next morning.
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