Also you’ve gotta understand, all this weight loss comes from the caloric drain of anaerobically supporting normal operations, I’m not dieting or pushing exercise, in fact I’ve basically abandoned any restraint in selecting food and been sitting around inside all week, and I still wake up thinner every day
Just now noticing the “labor” puns in Patlabor, the police mecha series more about being a member of a civil service workforce than cops & robbers stuff
Like, the way two guys bantering to each other in the recovery vehicle is a recurrent thematic thing…
Just now noticing the “labor” puns in Patlabor, the police mecha series more about being a member of a civil service workforce than cops & robbers stuff
yeah the brain thing where I overextrapolate patterns in auditory input to the point I hear songs in street noise is nuts, I’m pretty sure this is what people were getting when they were having mental breaks talking about hearing “choruses of angels” and that
This really isn’t supposed to be a #relatable thing, this is something actually kinda freaky that’s been showing up ever since I recovered from a big plug of brain damage.
video games are all about meeting a little elf outside the city gates that says ‘ah… the pernicious weed!’ when you give him a healing herb and then finding yourself fifteen years later saying “ah… the pernicious weed!” to yourself in the shower
yeah the brain thing where I overextrapolate patterns in auditory input to the point I hear songs in street noise is nuts, I’m pretty sure this is what people were getting when they were having mental breaks talking about hearing “choruses of angels” and that
Guy who’s convinced the world does revolve around him and the epicycles compensating for him trying to shrug the role would cause more bother for everyone than just running with it
Oh hey I just want to say I really appreciate everyone reading this. You’ve been an important factor in my life and I appreciate it. Not just the users who are named characters in my personal arcs, and not just the casuals or the lurkers either, all the people who see one reblog or drift in briefly or type the URL on web.
Except for some of the anons, you guys are jackasses.
Okay, the snow’s retreated and it had pressed Strawberry Ridge down nice and packed, and Blueberry Hill enough I could take the parts that were already smashed flat and smash them super flat, so I did that for the ¼ on the perimeter I could teach from solid ground and hopefully those’ll bind as a solid base to start getting the rest tomorrow.
Realized that as of this last echo wave I can make do with 3 scoops creatine on waking/2 on sleep so I don’t get up in too much of a hole, but if I’m doing yard work I really need 4/2 or I get exhausted.
This 6 is a 3 scoop increase from before this wave, which had been 3 after starting at 4 last wave, but the *increased creatine demand* really includes about 2 scoop-equivalents my body makes itself every day, so while the last wave was really a 6 scoop increase in demand (and the original had been 10), this one was only 3, so it’s leveling off
there’s a certain poster here that i keep hearing is a reactionary
before his personality change he seemed like
so there’s a personality type that finds esoteric grimness/the noun form of sardonic funny, not in a haha way, but in like a Russian humor we’re all going to die, oh i love you so much i want to kill myself, cheers to the economy you were a great friend, type of way
it’s not left or right wing
but if you don’t read it with the layer of sarcasm/irony it engenders you come out thinking that personality type’s advocating for universal genocide
when in truth it’s just a kind of nerd who’s deeply uncomfortable with the state of things and what you’re reading is something between a curse against the demiurge and whatever you call that displacement thing that people do when they’re reading about really difficult bullshit, like titoism, central asian pannationalism, imperial Chinese omnicides, background death cults operating in weird political theaters unlike the american one, etc
I guess I always read that poster as having that personality type
or somehow missed the times he genuinely nazi posted
and like to be fair that’s the core of the whole “darkly hinting” bullshit of the alt right, but leftists do it all the time too
maybe i just never interacted with him when he had a mask down and was just being himself in a specifically political context, saying his beliefs outright. something idealists tend to do more than fatalists
not sure if it’s moot now tho
I am a *notoriously* bad judge of character also
or I’m not but bad incidences have convinced me I am
Is this me?
I’d say I’m mostly going in a “thou too art mortal” sense. “Thou too aren’t moral”? That moralized understandings of recent history leave us with a distorted view only seeing continuity with the parts currently designated “the good guys” and we need counterweighting to realize where the “bad guys” – who were just as much humans in history operating under forces – are clearer precedent
Like, the Reagan ‘80s.
Whether you take an almost normie “morning in America” view or a leftist critical history, what do you do with the contemporaries calling him a new Hitler? If you’re shorting them, what about the fact Reagan did start a rearmament program to revive the economy, make geopolitical threats, and abandon national minorities only recently taken as objects of care?
Like as we enter what I suspect could be a new reactionary period, the fact that last time we engaged in policy that could reasonably called Nazi-esque, and this is generally celebrated as a success laying the foundations for subsequent decades of glory is a pretty important baseline that no one seems to be highlighting so sure, I will.
I was maybe early 2010s NRx-adjacent, in range of seeing the whole “Axis of Evil” period here (while also in range of commies before it was obvious how the 2010s would go), got invited to join a few “dissident right” projects but they all looked like dead ends and I was right.
The anxiety disorder plays a part here, in that in making any point I was prominently aware of the most negative possible sequence proceeding from there and felt compelled in the name of fairness to acknowledge that
